RHYFRESHED

# 105

2010-01-29T10:51:00.000+08:00

Sweets ! been long since last updated ! end of december was busy with school opening and lately now been busy with schoooooooooooool. wont deny that i skipped quite a lot of lesson since school starts. -.-okay first and for all , i did get the architecture cost that i want. its like so yay! , classmates was okay. school was fun!

Boyfriend was great! 4th monthsary just passed.

Nigga cme back on the 24th , he texted me first , when i didnt. like miracle !

xoxo

# 104

2010-01-25T10:26:00.002+08:00

Spongebob Squarepants in Bikini Bottom Bowling

Click here to play this game

lesson time. (((((((((((((((((((((((:

# 103

2009-12-20T00:49:00.000+08:00

Results day, i hate to talk about this.

1. torned with ilah and dayah before the result day.
2. met rad in the afternoon , before going to school.
3. met ilah and dayah half way and all the kuncus.
4. received a message from wawa.
5. wawa and sya get released to take results.
6. sya is so tembam !
7. get results , first pantat to cry in the whole hall.

20 pts, im over only with one point !

heartpained.

cannot tahan, wana meet baby straight away.

last goodbye to all friends and off i went to meet baby.

as sooon as i saw him i give him a hugged.

his results right? , mangkuk.

if i get his results i terjun diri.

sumpah tak bedek.

i can take all courses at ite exp for two new courses.

impianku , ingin architecture kesampaian , tapi tak tahu accepcted ke tak.

-.-

baby's off to tp.

after fourday then he'll returned.

im so gonna miss him.

he got an indon number, so kekek punye la panjang number die.

tak jadi four days , jadi three days aje.

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

xoxo

#102

2009-12-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

i used to say friends are forever , guys are whatever.

what it seems to be now is the other way round ,

not beacuase finally ive moved on,

it's because, my boyfriend treasure me more than my friends.

(exp wawa, i miss her.)

;(

xoxo

# 101

2009-12-16T01:42:00.000+08:00

went out to marina today with boyfriend and co.

Been lazy to update this and that lately , heh. So a quick one about today! it was an unplanned outing with them today, i just got to know about this yesterday. Nash planned to go marina barrage, due to the bad weather. we went to marina square instead , heh.

Met boyfriend in the morning, at 12 noon. heh. its still morning for me, rshed to go find the wrapping paper for his mum's present. yeah, belum jadi menantu dah dapat present. hehe.after that , i wrapped the present under his block while waiting fr him to clean up th house. waited for an hour fifteen mins, -.- standard. finally he came down , im in ears cause im freaking thirsty. lol. dunno how in the world i can cry, heh. our hajat to go ica building and changi airport tak kesampaian we straight away went out instead.

i gave boyfriend's mum a pink brooch as her birthday present , i hope she liked it.
;D

After that we people had no plans , and then off we got back to bedok. and off to our saperate ways , spent the rest of my nights with him. i reall had fun today. thanks for everyhing bebeh, love you !

p.s no nice pitures to upload , i was freaking masai in very picha today.
N level results realeasign on the 18th of december , 230pm. im gg with acin. heh.

xoxo

# 100

2009-12-13T02:52:00.000+08:00

Muhammad Ashraf , this is for you.

the first reason i made you cry is about him ,

the last reason i make you cry is about the same person also.

im really feeling guilty right now.

i know what i did wasnt right at all ,

things will go worst if i hide this from you of cause,

i still then have to tell you the truth ,

i cant bear to lie to you.

the truth always hurts.

i thank you for having patience with me all these while,

i'll make shure the patience you've had, worth.

i've been hurting guys around , since im left alone.

i've promised myself since the day i got you back not to let you be one of my victim ,

but im sorry , i just did.

i'll forget him .
its a matter of i want or i dont ,
decision made,
i want to.

i promise,
this is th last mistake linked to him,
after this , he's no longer gonna exsist in my life anymre.
i aint no scared of him nigga,
im more scared of you instead .

im scared of loosing you.
you're my another half.
you're my everything.

xoxo

p.s i love you.

# 99

2009-12-13T01:50:00.000+08:00

First and foremost , dira and i are continueing our mission in creating a dance crew . we call ourself ,

LUSH FUSION

we lush ! are made up by a group of girls. that share the same passion called, dance.

its a fusion of hip hop , modern and contemporary moves.

every member of lush are sisters !

we'll go through thick and thin together,

we'll work hard for every competition , winning is not it.

fun and experience is what we aim for.

if you have the same passion ,

and you share the same goals as everyone here

& have yet to have any crew around.

WE WELCOME YOU TO LUSH!

http://lushfusion.blogspot.com/

xoxo

# 97

2009-12-12T12:50:00.000+08:00

I'd never knew how much i mean to you. I dont know how much im treasured deep inside your heart. Cause, i couldnt get what you've been trying to show me all this while. All i could see from you is just anger,temper and pleasure. But still , im sabar enough to endure all the bad things you've done to me. If only , you'd been this nice to me years ago. I should have waited for another year before i moved on.

If only , you'd trust me. things wouldnt end up like this. you'll never leave me and ill not miss my last chance i had to be with you. cause , it'd been two years things been going on the same. Nothing seems could saperate us both. we'll still be by each other after a few months then. if only , we didnt give up.

If only , you'd stop thinking about ur pleasure and how much pain you've caused . if only you kept those words you say, i would have waited a little longer. You shouldnt have confused me , you should have just tell me everything straight to the point. if only i'd knew you're sincere , i could have wait a little longer.

im sorry , but everything just seems to be in a mess. it kept haunting me , days and nights. i couldnt concentrate in my exams i couldnt carry on in doing my daily routine. i find it hard to carry on , i find it hard to move on.we've been together for three years , and after our break till now. we're still clinggging on to each other. is the love just too strong between us , or the memories are just to meaningful for us both.

i cant explain this feeling
i think about it everyday
and even though we've moved on
it gets so hard to walk away

Bby, yes im yours and you're mine. I love you a whole lot. if i used to love him like the whole wide world , my love for you is bigger than the whole wide world that i cant put it to words.No matter how much i deny , i admit i still have feelings for him still. i dont know why, he's the longest perhaps? he's my first true love ? he's the one that turn me like this. He'd the one that thought me how to face obstacles in life. He's the one that that thought me how to hidup susah. he's the one that bring me here. He's the one that turn me like this , the shikif you love came from him. you ought to thank him for turning me like this. if not , im already badly rotten. im not this good , im worst than all this .worst than what you see right now.

i know my limits when im with him , we're just friends. he's just too late. i waited for two years , and he didnt appreciate it. Now my heart is yours, its not his's anymore. Dont hurt me like how he hurt me , dont treat me like how he treat me. im not expecting anything big from you, i dont want ur money , i dont want ur ciggs , i dont want your things, all i want is just your love. You , by my side , is already enough for me.
(:

xoxo

# 95

2009-12-11T19:28:00.000+08:00

This picture is freaking cute.

I love my matrape. <3

haha.

xoxo

# 94

2009-12-04T13:16:00.000+08:00

Rain Rain Go Away !

Come Again Another Day!

Shikif Wants To Meet Ashraf ,

Rain Rain Go Away!

Going back home to sengkang , im missing everything at home.

As soon as i got home, i wanna watch syurga cinta!

Baby's sending me home.

Cant wait for the rain to stop pouring,

I wanna meet my dear boyfriend.

xoxo

# 93

2009-12-03T23:19:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday dear cousin.

Cant believe this girl turned thirteen today it feels like yesterday she's still 10yrs old.

Have fun today ,

May all ur wishes come true.

xoxo

# 92

2009-12-03T19:58:00.001+08:00

Touch Screen phone sucks a whole lot.

i dropped my phone , and i can no longer touch the screen anymore. The thing just dont work anymore! All i can do is press the middle button, to answer calls.

Baby's phone can message but cannot take calls.

Mine , can take calls but cannot message.

-_______________-

Been all at home since morning ,

Dee is out to work.

Amalina is out with cik yeye.

Nenek just got back from paris.

Aunt is out to work.

Thanks for the strepsils anw , i cant stop coughing in the morning. And thanks to the strepsils my aunt gave me. I felt better today.pls la, cure me faster. i wanna smoke. heh.

So its just left me, nafis , syafiq and nenek at home.

not forgetting my uncle.

i smoked only two sticks since morning.

please , for once just listen to your boyfriend.

cut down smoking la ,

My boyfriend!

I miss him a lot and a lot.

If i used to miss halim as the whole wide world.

I miss ashraf as the whole universe !

Meeting him tmrw, yayy floater !

tsktsktsk.

xoxo

# 91

2009-12-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

WawaDangdut&Syasya.

I miss them both.

Alot and alot.

How are they inside ehh? It feels so sunyi and sei without the two kecohrables. Yeah , they are the one that start to call the whole of us ' the kecohrables' especially at block panjang , we'll strum the guitar and sing out loud like nobody bisness, your call- secondhand serenade. My study moments most of it is with wawa. We do all silly things together. This year puasa , we study till we buka underblock dua orang. Thats how semangat we are for our n level. And she's the only one that sangup turun sengkang at night , just to company me study and listen to all my talking. Sya is expert with all those piercing things. She pierce both my second earhole for me. Call me everymorning , 'nak masuk lambat tak?' she' the one that always smoke SKL every morning. And bring only 2 sticks of cigar to school. haha. We both always cabot dnt/art lesson together. we'll meet at our tempat biase after one period gone and stayed til 5 mins before class end then we'll get back to class. (;

Ilah-Lala

Haha, this one! Since primary five. Same class, till sec four. i dont know why, but i hate her. i cant sit beside her, i'll tend to tell her things she's not soupose to know about me. haha. No matter how much i wana hide , Still a few hours or minutes later , i'll still let the cat out of the bag. She's my sister,my twin. I wander my people kept mistook the both of us together. I look way diffrent than her, fish you. And this girl , in a week out of the 5 days in school. 4days out of the 5, she'll confirm come to me and ask me to teman her go berak. Non-stop. Biler part tembus pun , aku la orang nye yang akan ditarik.

Raddy Lambert.

I dont know what to say about her. hahahaha.Too many to mentioned. She just cant sit still , banyak illusion. Too many things to daydream about , she like to laugh alone.She's my partner. She's my cousellor. She's my bie. She has a high level of patience.haha, true enough. And guys, if you want her number, pls just forget it. She's already engaged to *insertnamehere.*

Haha, the five of us.

viknesh call us ,

the 5/5.

I miss them ,

I miss school,

I miss every single moment in Bedok North Secondary School.

xoxo

# 90

2009-12-01T01:24:00.004+08:00

Met baby today, first thang company him to recruit express to hand up his time sheet. After that i was forced to go for check up,at tamp poly beacause of my irritating bad cough that i'd been having for almost one week? After two days im still not smoking yet. grrrr. Thanks to one person , Muhammad Ashraf. (: It took us long enough to wait for my freaking number to be called , F191. Naz , Squirell and Faz was already waiting for us at bustop. I felt so guilty , but still like i say kate ashraf. He con , he say we're at bedok poly but we arrived at the bustop by bus 65 which comes directly from tamp to damai bustop ? Nampak sah con bby. Bus-ed to CSC, cause they want to interview work. Semua dah bopian ! So they had no choice , after then followed them to job hunting at parkway parade. It'd been longgggggg enough since i jejak parkway parade. -.- i hate going there with no cash , cause the smell of famous amous's cookie keeps calling for me.Bus-ed to simei , take 31 and i saw hot hot hot Aslam and girlfriend. (: though they are no longer together , they're still best friends after all.

Tomorrow , im not meeting anyone. So i guess , i'll just be staying at home with the guys. playing games and all sort of guys stuff , and rotting away at home. Ashraf is gg jobhunting tmrw , i hope he get a job after travelling here and there looking for one.

8 more days,

money masuk day.

18 more days ,

Nlevel result release!

24 more days ,

Third monthsary!

omgggggg, all this thing is tense-ing me.

fish , pls. i hope nothing bad will happen.

i first hope , money will come out earlier.

second , i really get at least 19pts and below for n level results.

third , my third monthsary actually came true.

[Cepatnye dah third month?]

xoxo

# 89

2009-11-22T14:01:00.001+08:00

You're confusing me,

What you're saying to me,

Dont play with me , dont play with me

Cause!

What goes around , comes around.

Karma.

till one day, somebody did the same thing you do to me.

then you know how pain it feels. [;

xoxo

# 88

2009-11-22T05:47:00.003+08:00

Sometimes in life , things doesnt work out as what you planned it to be. It doesnt mean you love that sumone you will get that person fo shure. I believe, god will send you sumone better than you expect.

I really did have lots of fun times with him the good ones and also the bad ones , leaving you is definitely gonna be a mistake. I knw i did smthng wrng , and still im doing it again despite being warned several times not to. I just cant resist this feeling , its what i want for since years back. Im just so sorry to hide this away from you. I just want you to know , i love you no matter what. (: Twomonthsary coming !, Muhammad Ashraf. ♥

Another refreshed friendship/relationship dunno what to say. I did have fun with you , but still. Having fun with you is good but contacting with you is like a sin. Though i already get half of what i want from you, its just too late. Im no longer legal to owe that happiness that i need years back ,that you are giving me now. Its just too little too late. Abd Halim Bin Abu Bakar.♥

I cant leave my ashraf.

I cant bear to loose you again too , i've been wanting you.

Ashraf isnt a mistake , for shure.

Things just get so complicated , this is so wrong.

xoxo

# 87

2009-11-21T13:26:00.000+08:00

Mentioned yesterday , that amirul freak added me .And then the drama mama begins! i didnt mentioned to him straight foward tht i know who his true identity is. But i did bahasekan him , he ask me why am i so lemah as in im in a very tired mode yesterday. Then i say , i am super happy! but suddenly got new drama mama coming up. Then he was like whats the drama mama coming up? then i just tell him his story. Step dunno la , then he still can say ' perangai macam siak sey abey kenape masih layan ? ' perangai dier memang macam siak , ingat kan dah 19 tahun dah besar dah boleh pakai kepala otak , masih dgn perangai lama dier dulu.' huhu.

The real person finally came out with his true identity like a few hours later. I think he got my message stuck into his head already. So , hiding his trueself isnt gonna work cause i already know who in the world is he. He did onlined with me using his REAL ACCOUNT. No hiding hiding , at first we both were having a tiff over his sister, i take care if his sister dgn rela hati. I dont even ask for anyth in return and he can still say if anyth happen to his sister, he'll deal with me straight. But so far, i did no harm to his adik. Suke hati you la eh, kalau kau tak percaye aku why not , you take care of her yourself ? And he can still say , im with his asik because of dendam , not because im sincere in taking care of her.

*baru cakap , kan dier dah online*

We did talked about lots of stuffs la , i dont know why but when im in a conversation with him i always forget ashraf behind , and always, when im online with him or what , ashraf is always not here by my side. ;(

Meeting bebeh in an hour time,
i miss him truckloads!
;D

xoxo

# 86

2009-11-20T23:24:00.003+08:00

New drama mama coming up.

amirul-spade@live.com.sg

im-open@live.com

ade e-mail addy baru lagi? haha. nie semua orang orang yang takperlu. yang takde life , yang tak habis habis nak menyusahkan hidup orang lain.hahahahaha. i knew this person true identity. if you've been reading my blog. you know who im talking about . haiya, ingatkan dah 19 dah ade life , dah berubah lupenye masih sama macam dulu. still , this person have no life.suke hati kamu la eh bebeh? asalkan kau bahagia. (:

Baby finish working at 1130pm today. ;(
Meeting him tmrw , thought of not meeting. Confirm he penat after work and despite we'd met for three consecutive days. takkan tak jelak? haha. but still he wants to meet me then , we'll meet ! i miss you truckloads too.

Why got no more drama mama anymore in my life? its getting bored you know. -.-

Nab is already here !
I miss her so much, but still there's no drama this time.
Everyone depression mode.
We're watching penelope ! yes that movie that makes me forget about halim. it didnt have anymore impact on me anymore. Cause im over him (:

Nafis will be back from perak today , my dear brother. Today is zulaika's birthday too. She onlined with me , haha. she miss my brother , she asks me to tell nafis to msg her tonight. Then i was like rindu nampak ?

xoxo

# 85

2009-11-20T16:31:00.003+08:00

Laugh as much as you live , love as long as you breathe.

xoxo

# 84

2009-11-20T16:24:00.001+08:00

Nabilah is coming tonight !
Yessssssssss ah! now i freaking lonely, amalina is off to camp till sunday. im so gonna miss her! we did have our girls talk last night before she goes. I hope i say the right thing to her. Adly and syafiq went to sembahyang jumaat. Aunt/Uncles off to work. Been onlineing with abang iqin daritadi pagi , i mean since i online till now. And no one is at home besides me and dee. Dee is still ngoroking inside. -.-

Baby is working , im so bored without him.
Duduk rumah sudah despite , we've been meeting three days straight in a row though. Nanti jelak , so cannot , im meeting him on saturday instead which is tmrw. I missssssss you!

Eh nabilah ! come earlier la.
huhu.

xoxo

# 83

2009-11-19T04:39:00.000+08:00

Met baby just now.
He's freaking cute! he never wear gel. and he's freaking masai bebeh. Dengan masam dier baru balik kerje, know what i say ? " lagi awak masam lagi i sayang! " But we didnt hang out too long , cause we actually have limited time. I gotta remind myself again and again that im not sleeping at my house, if nak balik pukul 12pagi pun takpe.Im at rumah orang la dey, please behave sayang. Naz lepaked with us also , and he's quite pissed cause we gotta got off earlier. ;p

Kite semua kekeringan -.-

Of cause , i dont sleep early. what th fish am i doing at 4:25am not sleeping? im just too bored to sleep im still freshly awake. heh. i miss dancing , seriously. but those kental peps wanna start next year instead of these year. So its a total mendak holiday with no things going on these year. Hahaha. I think this is my annual break after having a hardtime studying. So i rather spend my time at home with everything , rather than merempat around. Cause when i start schooling already , i'll have no time to spent at home. Seriously speaking.

Two monthsary coming soon , in a few days time.
Yesterday was my freaking 4 years a month tak menjadi. So yeah, i aint no gonna think about it anymore. I wont break up with my muhammad ashraf, insyaallah. I am very proud of myself that im already moving on. & of cause , i didnt expect ashraf darling to be the one that im moving on with .I've been single for the longest time ever , 2years 3months. Break Record. ;)

I wanna read novel.
Nak tunggu nabilah datang bawak novel can mati kekeringan man.
-.-'

xoxo

# 82

2009-11-18T14:48:00.000+08:00

Bebeh. Im at dee's crib. I misssssss all my cousins! especially dee, amalina and nabilah. We did had a lot of catch up since i stepped this house. Nabilah wasnt in , she's coming on friday instead . We planned to come down on friday actually but i was dead bored at home and then i cabot go here instead i was 2 days early. In fact , i've been delaying and delaying im souppose to be here by last week to teman nani. heh. sorry -.-

i cut my frienge.

Havent been working, was accepcted at CSC. but i lazy to work there , cause its freaking jauh. i went for the training , but i cabot half way. if im not working there why in the world should i continue that training right? Ashraf isnt pissed with me about it , i knew halim would. i would be fucked upside down ah if i cabot these cabot that and of cause not working would be a big thing for him .

Met Ashraf yesterday, lepaked at floater. but then its raining , with naz , heikel , hamizan and zul. i think i dont even remember their names by heart. its quite gerek though its just the 6 of us. but we didnt go up the hill like we used to , cause its hujan. I missed the meteorites last night, i didnt went out last night. But i do stayed up till 5:30am read novel. I read the book already but i have no choice but to read it again , im too bored to sleep.

Days with bebeh was fun! we didnt meet every single day duh. Days with him is further better than with halim. I wasnt treated like shit uh , at least. ;p will these last long ? insyallah. :D meeting him later. miss him like fcuk. he tend to know me better , especially my sleeping perangai. Shikif kalau dah tidur , dier tidur mati. Bebeh waited for me from morning till 3pm yesterday. Cause he cabot work , then planned to meet earlier but i was freaking asleep like babi. Then we still meet at 4pm. hehe,

Meeting Adly later , planned to lepak.
After that meeting baby at bedok ,* kene turun lagi.* -.-'
[bby kaw kerje shikif , kau duduk rumah je , takmu macam macam.heh.]

xoxo

# 81

2009-11-09T15:09:00.001+08:00

I hate zia remo.
I thought he would forget me already but actually no he didnt ! even when i told him im attached , he still say he wanna wait for me , but pls no way . I wount leave ashraf you dammit.

Yesterday, it ws halim problem.
halim called me and i was otp with ashraf also.
Suddenly Halim confessed that he love me la and what not , and after he change then he's comming for me back. Why now? When i actually given up on him already? Why cant he confessed everything ? Why must he beat around the bush? Whats with him? And now when im happy with my love ones he want to destroy my realtionship. I aint afraid if him destroying my relationship actually , but im afraid if im the one going back to him. What the fish is all this man?

Ashraf, we have to be very careful with all these things.
Challenges kept coming up ahead infront of us , we've been going thru a lot of things and im afraid that we're not gonna last till the 7 years. pls , i want him to be the last.

xoxo

# 80

2009-11-02T00:18:00.000+08:00

I gotta job!
And this wednesday its gonna be my first day.
Im working with raddy lambert. Same position , same time , same place. And we are both worried about me, am i gonna wake up on time? or maybe im not even going to sleep? i cant even wake up after 64 miss calls from annoying people in the morning. letak bomb pun belum tentu bangun.heh.

I miss my baby,
Been a few days since we last met. -.-

Im waiting for 'your call' i dont think i can stay up for long and tats why im onlineing, To keep me awake. Im in pain. Im having bodyache, thanks to yesterday one carton of drinks! i have to pikul from shop to 535 carpark. The pain began from my palm to my arms , to my shoulder and now to my back. And im feeling so feverish! Can i even make it for tmrw's date.?

xoxo

# 79

2009-10-31T00:40:00.000+08:00

I'd always say that love sucks big time.
Cause love always hurts.
And i'd never thought of falling in love once again.
After two years of cure-ing my heart.
Finally i found my dear darling.

Life has a always been great with him by my side!
I'll love him today , i'll love him tomorrow and i'll love him forever i guess?

Lets keep my past behind , and let this new one begin.
I hope it'll have a better ending than before.

All i could say is , i lost you once and i cant bear to loose you again ! ;D

xoxo

# 78

2009-10-30T00:03:00.002+08:00

Wawa texted me this morning !
i am so happy to the max.

Today i didnt meet nab due to some of her reasons. -.- And , i actually met ashraf in return. Yes i miss him ! , padahal only one day we didnt meet. Which is yesterday? So at first , off we head to pasir ris park . We sat my usual place with either wawa , rad , or ilah. But most of it is wawa ! I almost cried there , but bear bear was there to cheer me up. After then we bus-ed to sengkang! we planed to lepak at pur usual place , but its taken by some nyonya. We ended up at sculpture park then. And kindda lots of hilarious incident happened.

Shikif : b, you got blackheeds?
Ashraf: Ape tu b?
Shikif : Dier from whiteheed to blackheeds to pimple.
Ashraf : Eh?
Shikif : I anuh kan eh?
Ashraf : Sakit tak?
Shikif : Tak la, tapi kalau i mesti mata i berairnye.
Ashraf : Anuhkan ! ;D

The rest is private and confidential , its just between us. We met at 5pm till 1130pm. And guess what ? After i board 86 , we both receive the same message from each other. ' i miss you '

To hell , what people wanna say, Ashraf gemuk ke , ape ke tu ke nie ke. Know what i still love him. <3

I'M ASHRAF'S SINCE 24.09.2009

Sengaje , menyeyapkan cerita.

That day , halim texted me , ask me to message him , but then i only told him i cant message him anymore cause im att already and i dont want history to repeat. Terus dier diam . -.- yes ahhhh! did i just fucked him off my way? yes bebeh , you just did.

And so thats the end of today story, im websmsing him.

I'm so tired. -.-

xoxo

# 77

2009-10-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

Am i blessed with luck today?
Rad says im a no luck person. -.-

Today, my whole family went to bedok. The kids is placed at nenek hse. And my parents , to weddings and the hospital ! Biler la aku nak khawin eh? And of cause i went out to meet my members , and this time its no wawa , its rad. I bought bubble tea for shure ! Honeydew Snowblend! Hang out at petal garden tempat lame , its gettting more boring. The skaters are still there , with the street soccers player. Matrapes/Minahs seated at pondok. I was once in their position./3 years. ;D Nothing much besides them. Almost everyone dah masuk , or some just get busy with their own things.

Sabri , Mahmood , Hakim , Wawa And Sya is already in.
Rad on the way to go.
Labvee and khalis is busy with NS. (some of the guys should be doing th same thing also. )

Im now left with just limited people , like sasha , hakiem , acin , ashraf ;D and my cousins. Its okay! i guess im the last one to know that acin and dayya broke up alread. like yessssss ah ! i hate dayya du-uh. And acin said smth to me yesterday , and im serik enough with his perangai i guess he tengah steam obat batok or smthng. Finally he agreed to it , DAYYA IS A BIATCH. Yayyyy! selame nie aku tengok kau susah payah nak jage hati dier , jadi babu dier. And now finally you realise things , i dont wanna say those things straight foward , cause i knw you will realise it by yourself.

By random , ajaq text me today . Ask me if i wanna buy ciggs or not. Yess shikif tengah kering and cannot buy anymore singapore. Dah terlalu pohkyeee. And i told him ah mate, then he was like indon pun nak mate? SO he said he pay half for me la. Cause i always give him rokok, singapore summore. Tak mengungkit , but like imran ajmain says , yang selalu memberi ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima !

Halimhalimhalim! - haha. sasha told me smthng just now. It make my day! (= i didnt save his number , du-uh. i wouldnt want to , but i always remember it by heart. i even still memorize his ic number la eh? And she said i filled up most of his inbox. Hakiem als ! but , nevermind ! i was having the *uh-huh feeling* lol. Though the feelings like faded away already -.-

AshrafAshrafAshraf! - i dont know what to say, im happier with him .

xoxo

#76

2009-10-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

One Month/contacting with ashraf .
i lost the battle , i thought ashraf will get lost before one month.
i hate having bets with ilah. -.-

Oh hello ! im still here , termasuk this week dah dua minggu menganggur tanpa kerje. Kerje gue melepak , meghabiskan duit , dan membuang masa. Im always at tampines. And after yesterday when ilah said im growing fattttttter i got so annoyed with it. It kept hunting me day and night. And so today i went to gym with rad , i did the usual things and additional weights to have telur. -.- which i dont need any? im carrying two big telur already? We spent our time there and after then we lepak-ed around anchorvale. :D

Tomorrow, going bedok ! yessssssssssssss ah ! and im gonna lepak with rad again, and meet my baby tua ! I am so sick right now man. And im having tummy pain, should be beacause of the panngkeng machine at gym just now. Okay byebye!

Btw, I MISS NABILAH HUDA AND AMALINA !
<3

xoxo

# 75

2009-10-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

I met ashraf one whole day, i mean just form arnd 4pm til night. Before he went to work, we just alack around sengkang. For once , i buy cigratte tak lepas. I think because he dressed up to ' matrape ' .hehehehe. So i took the LRT from compassvale to rumbia(peh, pathetic one stop?) to buy cigarettes , then lepas tu patah balik compassvale. Dah macam budak giler , but the rumbia aunty dah season ! she knows what cigrattes i want. The deal is , if shikif lepas shikif sekotak ashraf sekotak. Stupid deal right ?

I hate nasi ayam ! it makes me eat non-stop. I forgot about my diet thingy. But i eat nasi ayam ,never eat the ayam , i eat it with udang? lol. That makes me sound like an idiot ? And i had , one big choclate bar yesterday all by myself. I cried,

Wawa dah masuk , she's with sya inside.
-.-

Rad , on the way , waiting for court letter.
Baru turun HQ last week.

Nad , busy for o levels.
Will be meeting her after he o's.

Ilah , busy with work.
She's not a good friend afterall so i dont bother much about her.

Halim ,
Been receiving good morning messages from him lately.
:DDDD

Ashraf,
Always been there by my side.

Taufiq,
under probation.

And now , please i need a job. Not F&B it sucks a whole lot. I tried compasspoint , mostly no vacancy. For giordano i have to go for interview at payar lebar, but still i have no ezlink. Tmrw , i going job hunting with faiz, souppose to be at plaza singapura bt as i say , no ezlink so will be going amk hub. Just one bus 86 , depan rumah. Kan sempurna sikit ? Just keep trying , keep trying.

;D

xoxo

# 74

2009-10-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

I dont pick ashraf not because , i dont love him.

I do ! and thats why its a better not decision , are you kidding me ? why would i wanna break a friendship throguh a relationship? When i was stil with halim , i stills blog about him evry year when his birthday comes .I stil write about ashraf in my diary , and when i get too restless , i'll flip over my diary and start reading the pages about him. Even though , i dont knw where he is.

And now, from the first day we got to contact each other back , we do click with each other still. Even though i dont really know him that much yet ,and so does he , we still try to click and understand each other better.

I didnt tell anybody that im in contact with him , its just that im always creless enough in holding on to my things til people will shurely find out about it. Tough they say that he's fat , and more not t be mentioned. [sensitive issues.] im stil like oh okay, nevermind he's cute.

the beginings of me and him now is just the same as me and halim dulu . where everybody doesnt like halim cause he's fugly. [ much worst than an ugly man. ;p] And so , if its gonna happen between me and ashraf or smthng , i hope its not gonna be like my story with halim. ;] And for shure, its not gonna be now.

my point is , kalau ade jodoh tak kan kemane right ?

Why i pick halim?
Cause im holding on to a promise to him for another two years, selagi tu two years tak sampai selagi tu aku tak puas hati. I dont think i even love him anymore rgiht now, [finally,after three years ;D]

xoxo

# 73

2009-10-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

so, its still abd halim bin abu bakar!

get well soon -.-

xoxo

# 72

2009-10-17T00:54:00.001+08:00

I've never been this tense ever,

i have to pick either one.

if years ago , i have no problem in picking either halim or muhsin .

Now im having one problem , its either ashraf or halim.

I promised , after two years for halim.

And i dont think , its gonna be that easy for ashraf to wait for me for another two years.

Will i rather suffer now and go for halim in two years time .

Or ,

Will i just forget about the whole thing and go for ashraf the whole time.

My memories with halim , can never be exchanged with anything.

As for ashraf , i did left him before for a jerk like ashshafiq , is halim a jerk ?

Will i leave him again and go for a jerk like halim ?

To be answered , by tomorrow..

xoxo

# 71

2009-10-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

I dont know what to blog about !

Since just now i've been surveying what phone is best to be our couple phone.We've been having a hard time deciding which phone is best for us. Kate nak LG ! then now , he melarat ke nokia pulak , if nokia i got one in mind already !Nokia E71 ! hehehehehe. Kurang ajar or what ? Shikif uhhhhhhh.

I want LG cookie ! i've been wanting it since acin use it , seriously. hehehe. nasib baik dah tak sekolah lagi , if not i'll be killed by irdayah. Anyway so what man ? Who cares ? lagipun dier setakat nak sakitkan hati acin what ? She's not really into acin , she just wants those guys around her.Cause she thinks she really looks good with all of them. But actually , Nope !

Siti Aisyahhh ! i always thought her name is Nur aisyah abu bakar.
Paisey ahh. ;D

Okay, besok kerje ! At 4pm.
Takmu sabo aku eh , tolong la.

xoxo

# 70

2009-10-16T01:27:00.000+08:00

Ashraf.

Alright , its gonna be random for now. Im gonna talk about the tittle above. I dont know where to start haha , but yeah he's so cute ! Okay for now , let me start from how did we both gotta know each other from the start. Here i go !

Primary Five.
First , we are from the same primary school! , Telok Kurau Primary School. And after that i dont know how we both get along , but we first started to menggatal after the primary five camp ( after i broke up with tajul isfahan. ) Our relationship , kirekan low profile la , only close people knows about it . Until , one day , his bestfriend , ashshafiq came and ask me to be his girlfriend ! And this ashshafiq doesnt know that im with ashraf. So i told ashraf , to let me go with ashshafiq " i pergi kat ashshafiq kejap ajer nanti i pergi kat you balik okay? " Then he say "okay."Kate cinta monyet ! Cute kan ?

After that , during my primary school i have two other friends. Kirekan we three are always together , Shikif , rasyidah and liyana . Ashraf , ashshafiq and nasrul are so called are among the hot hot boys are at that point of time. Liyana dgn shah matahir , Shikif dgn ashshafiq , and so dengan pathetic nye we both make rasyidah go with ashraf. Why ashraf? cause nampak sangat syidah tak akan kene dgn nasrul thats why its ashraf. And after that i dont know how , ashraf and rasyidah became together.

Lepas tu ! Our cerita cinta kan is not low profile anymore ah especially me and ashshafiq , seriously ramai orang tahu , sampai ade orang yang dengki dengki semua , and yes these three fella' hidayah sanip , suzy and herdawati. Dah la ni tiga ekor same class dgn tu tiga jantan ! the girls are so called the clever ones , we are two class ahead from them. hehehehehehe , intelligent sangat. And then , ade orang sabotage kiter , go and tell these cikgu kepo inside our school ; Cikgu siti . Tu tiga betina la tu , so yang kene is shikif and ashshafiq and rasyidah and ashraf.(Cikgu siti suruh kiter break off.) Ashraf happy nak mampos , idk why mati2 taknak patch dgn rasyidah but ashshafiq and me are still together. But me and ashshafiq didnt llast for long ah , suddenly we broke off. (i ask for it.) All these while when even ashraf and me are together with syidah and ashshafiq , me and ashraf still bermesra kat telephone everyday ah. Without syidah and ashshafiq knowing. Then im so called close with syidah though she kept telling me that she still love ashraf i still like "oh okay" and didnt bother about it ah. Until one day , ashraf tell ashiq about all the things that we both done together. And then ashiq tell syidah , and so the seret is , "ashraf stead dgn syidah setakat nak shikif balik ashraf tak pernah suke syidah." jengjengjeng! then syidah mengamuk with me ah. But i dont care , i have all the guys around me , setakat satu puki je taknak kawan dgn aku , so what bebeh ? And after then ,im not part of them anymore ah.

Primary six.
I was transfered to a better class , thank god im far away from syidah and liyana. Syidah stills tergila-gila kan ashraf . Then we gado gado gado , syidah call me prostitude sia. Dier kate , kerje aku asyik nak menyundal je dengan jantan. After i got out from that group i joined the clever people group ah , kan dah tukar class. But though these people are clever , seriously their perangai suck nak mampos. That time ahh kirekan , those nuraini and all. i only like afiqah and radhiah. And primary six also i start mingling around with ilah .

Im still in contact with ashraf la for these two years until i end my primary school PSLE posting day. .
I love him but i dont wanna be with him i scared we lost each other as boyf/girlf.

The freaking thing was ,
Syidah , Shikif , and Liyana - Bedok north sec.
Nasrul , Ashraf - Bedok town sec.
Ashshafiq - Pin yi sec.

Me and ashraf wanna get to the same school , but tak dapat. Syidah wants to be in the same school as ashraf pun tak dapat. Syidah doesnt wanna be in the same school as shikif but at the same time she got liyana. Syidah then burukkan my namer to her class , cakap i stole his exboyfriend from her la and "shikif kalau single semua orang tolong ah jaga matahyr korang. "

Sec One , i lost contact with ashraf. After then i started to stick with Abd halim bin abu bakar.From 18/10/05 all the way till 24/9/2009 when i got my ashraf back. I dont hate halim and i havent forget him . We broke up on the oh-seven' . But till now i just cant forget him , i dont know why. Maybe because we have too much memories together? Since the year oh-seven' till now oh-nine' semua laki , aku dapat aku busted ah. Until now , when i got my muhammad ashraf back , all we want is to be by each other side again .

We got saperated for four years. -.-

Will history repeat itself like me and halim ?
What if he change after ITE ?

You can say whatever you like and what not , i dont think i'll accepct anybody until that person wait for me for another two years. Seriously , i just dont want history to repeat itself. My main point is , love hurts man ! if you arent willing to get hurt then better keep away from falling in love. Its nice when its still fresh but once you get sick and tired of it , you'll just find any reason to break it up . Your partner then, will be the victim of love. And i was once a victim , the pain is still here in my heart. i'll never forget that pain . The pain that change my whole entire life right now.

Until , im confident enough with myself. Until im prepared to get hurt , until i cure my broken heart. Then i'll replace it with sumone new and i hope , nothing bad will happen again .

After three years , i stil love my Abd Halim Bin Abu Bakar.
Like got nobody else , i also dont know why am i still going for such a jerk like him.

xoxo

# 69

2009-10-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

Bebeh , i dreamt about halim. <3
Why now eh he come again?

Actually i dont wanna blog , but after i read sasha's blog about the 50 cents incident i feel like blogging straight away ! Oh okay! btw , i gotta job ! at T3, i got a position at cafe BARISTA ! (mccafe!) i was interviewed by suzy , and she's so so kerek. And ilah accompany me all day long , till wawa came. Cause she bingit, and so i love orang yang bingit bingit ! cause i love listening to stories. At least i can keep some little things not like feena ! i hate her , i dont know how am i gonna live working with her , tak terfikir pulak feena nanti kerje dgn aku.

And now , im at wawa's hse. lepaking , Nie la orang kene probation . Waiting for zee to come , cause we wanna go buy rokok. I wanna watch syurga cinta ! but that dvd ilah pinjam. like what the fish ? my mama at johor , everyweek she will go one. haiya ! Naddydy at home i guess , just now when i wanna go out i ask her to sleep on my bed , cause she sleep terkangkang at living room.

Im gonna return the ljs uniform when my i feel like my muke is tebal enuf to give back , tanpa segan silu .
Im gonna start work soon , this saturday ! From 4pm to 8pm. This is call a proper and organised company , OJT is souppose to be just 4hours of training. And not on the first day , you give me the counter position without even guiding me ? and after that put me to work from 3pm - 11pm when actually i know nothing.And i dont get money from the 3pm-11pm work on that day. Seriously , its just a charity work for long john silvers'

I hope things isnt gonna be cocked up at T3 later on , as i can see ilah is really having a hard time working there because of some pecahkan secret and what not. And so yeah , i dont know and i dont care. I dont even wanna get involve , and i know me and feena isnt gonna work that well . My main point of being there is just to work and earned some money. Seriously , if only being a prostitude = kerje yang halal. Dengan rela hati , aku reala jadi prostitude doks. hmmmmm. Kerje sorang. ;D

Download more reggae songs !
Aku kan hantu reggae tsktsktsk.

xoxo

# 68

2009-10-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

Long john silver's sucks a whole lot. serosly , neer work at any lonh john silver outlet . it is so pathetic , kerje dah rabak giler abey gaji kecik ? -.- i think im gonna get fuced by the manager , she caled me just now and i ddt bother to answer. she said , are you still interested in working ? if not at least hve some courtesy to ive me a call. And so , guees what i replied? i just say , oh , im sorr but i really really really a no interested to work with you people.

My semangat of going to school hilang semerta , i slept at 4am and after that my alarm clock doesnt work. ;D bukan doesnt work ah but orang dier yang tak bangun. Even ashraf slept late and can wake himself up to wake me up. lol. And so i woke up at 130pm.

As i didnt go to schoo today i thought of cancelling my meeting with ashraf . Cause i so called injured my leg gara gara kerje and then ya lah i thought of just buat bodohing with the thing . And then , tibe tibe my kaki , DAH BAIK , after kene pijak. And so i meet him. In the middle of the thing, halim message ! what the fluck ? then in my heart , all i could say is just "Why now?" And our mood just got off like that , and i shed a single drop of tear on my way home.

instead of getting a caramel for myself , i ended up eating one pickle-less cheese burger !
<3

Tomorrow , i have an interview at Changi airport terminal three ! As a beanie ! (Mccafe la sayang oi.) Ilah says i'll get that post 90% confirmed. So yeah , i hope i'll get it. So every single day i can make my own caramel and drink it for freeeeeeee !

Prepaid , low giler right now.
grrrrrrr.

xoxo

# 67

2009-10-14T15:41:00.001+08:00

LJS Sucks.
I went once and im not going agian.
;D

xoxo

Number 66.

2009-10-11T23:09:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow , design and technology theory paper.
wish me luck.
;D

Number 65.

2009-10-10T12:45:00.001+08:00

Jobhunting part1.

Seriously this was random , it was unplanned and then i just signed up for fun ah. i do it alone and then they give me a form and ask me to come back the next day, so i did . and they say came at 3. when i reached already she say come at 4. like what the fluck . And withing 12 mins the next thig i know is , im employed !

Jobhunting part2.
Wawa and Zie.

We had one of our misssion done. We went job hunting at Tamp one and i got quite a lot of application signed. At this accesories shop , and this japan shop also i applied to be part of their crew, blah blah blah. Quite a lot ah. And after then we went to bedok to lepak , and we forgot that wawa ade probation until 7pm. like what the fluck , zie ask me to follow them go bedok by the time dah pukul berape right ? i tried reaching for ashraf but he tido mati. hehehehehe. So we both then lepak with wawa depan rumah dier. Aku ketawe kan budak 667 yang dieorng lpak depan rumah akmal maser dier probation in th end aku yang jadi mangsa nye sekarang. -_-'

As usual , with zee we gossip a lot .
I dont want wawa to masuk, pls pray hard for her.

xoxo

Number 64.

2009-10-10T12:34:00.001+08:00

Facebook Madness.
;D

SocialInterview.com asked me "What will Rasyidah Osman be doing in 10 years?"

I answered: "Making babies for Ashraf ! [;

Rasyidah Osman: no waaaaay ! me or you making babies for him ? LOL !
Shikif Sinclair: YOU ! why me? NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Acap Astro: damn!
Shikif Sinclair: hahaha. Ashraf ! who is making babies for you ?
Rasyidah Osman: hahaha , obviously you laa dey ! tnyer dier buat aper .
Acap Astro: damn it!
Shikif Sinclair: hahahhahaha. dier nak cume malu jer nak cakap. -_- ''
Acap Astro: tkmu merepek lah b
Shikif Sinclair: You marah i ? -__-'
Acap Astro: mesti ar !
Shikif Sinclair: Sorry bbby . ;D pleeassssssssssssseee?

Seriously , my main point was to get them both together again. i mean i knew rasyidah wants ashraf since they broke up. and ashraf had been the one that saperates us both from being together again. he's the cause of the distant , cause rasyidah found out the truth that he stead with her just to get me back. And do no since im the one that get in contact with ashraf back , then i wanna make them both be together again. But after much things that happen between me and ashraf , im afraid that what i hope for at first isnt going to happen. Because i love him much enough. Me and ashraf had things going on first before rasyidah. And thats why , we kept saying , " we lost each other once , and we dont wanna loose each other again, "

Shikif took the What is your best aspect of your body?(GIRLS ONLY) quiz and got the result: boobs..

Boobs: ur best part of ur body is ur boobs...many guys will be staring a lil lower than ur eyes when they r talking to u and u will now y....

Siti Noor Sahilah likes this.

Saifuddin Zimbabsueh seee i told you! your's bigger! degil kan?! haaha
Shikif Sinclair Pantat you la ! hahahaha. ;DDDD
Saifuddin Zimbabsueh betool! tak cayer nie. haha
Shikif Sinclair diaaaam ah! test nie tak betol la. ader rosak sikit.
Saifuddin Zimbabsueh hahahaha. tak cayer sudah. taknak cakap pape. haha
Siti Noor Sahilah hahahaa .
Shikif Sinclair HAHAHAHAHAHA ! pathetic nyer korang !
Saifuddin Zimbabsueh well i am. hahahaha
Taufik Bin Bahar saya stuju bob..high five (borat style)
Shikif Sinclair oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. serious ah korang. what the fluck ? ;[

*giggling*
Hehehehehehe.

xoxo

Number 63.

2009-10-09T14:33:00.002+08:00

Short post. [;

Hakim sapau text me yesterday.
luckily i was already back at home , if not i'll be shouting alone inside the bus.

Maths paper was horrible.

I went for job applying thing yesterday.
and today im going for the interview at 3pm.

Job hunting part two today ,
with wawa and zie. i dont wanna kerje jauh jauh at bugis , i want the one depan my house !

Today is the 9.10.2009 .
* 8 more days to shikif- halim official 4 years*

Yesterday , 8/10/2009
Rad , masuk prison .
But shes already out.

Sinclair's <3

xoxo

Number 62.

2009-10-06T23:02:00.001+08:00

I screwed up my maths paper like what the fuck ? i didnt have time to finish it . -_-' whats done is done ! i cant change the whole thing again . screw me ! , stop dreaming of being an architecture yaw !

Days with ashraf sinclair had been going fine !

I lepaked with rad just now. Ilah sucks eh ? Okay and guess what ? this friend of mine broke her babytooth at the age of sixteen at one pondok while lepaking infront of her fraking friend that couldnt stand the sight of blood ! what the fuck ? i was freaking geli and i almost vomited. i have my history with blood.

I feel like sharing my experience for my maths paper today! haha. i was freaking nervour i tell you and im so tired. i didnt study yesterday night and all i had was last minute revison this morning. seriously , i was really masai in school . hair is always the problem and i wore the wrong uniform it was so big and i feel so naked today. Then before i had my paper. I'd been going in and out of the toilet pee-ing. seriously , this is like the most worst experience of all. History paper was yesterday and i was also behaving the same way like this. grrrrrrrrrrr. and my maths tutor was sitting infront of me , ariffin . so he was like , relax shikif relax its just a paper ? why you so patah semangat before even you touch the paper? i cant stop talking ! you know how bising i was? seriously. like what the shit man me ?

and today im overnighting dee hse to get prepared for my maths paper two in two days time. Radd's court in two days time too. wawa and rad is having high hopes in masuking and they are gonna meet sya inside and its left me alone. with my freaking irritating super annoying friend. oh-mi-god. i cant resist her. and they both are being irritating by kept mentioning me about the thing again and again. pls get me out of that school asap !

oh well i am ? in just two days time! thurday maths paper two and monday is my dnt paper ! yaaaaay ! after that i'll take a break and start looking for a job ! srsly , i need the money bebeh. ;D

No more studying at rivervale plaza , no more iskandar. last saturday was a torture i was studying alone without wawa and the iskandar suddenly appear. I cant control my laughter till i have to act talking on the phone while actually i was talking to no one ? i was laughing my arse out. thanks too wawa for torning with her boyfriend and left me alone. -_-'

Everyone is going to their own way and i can seriously see that.

I didnt know sasha misses me much enough. and she stills think about me ? haha. i read your blog you kental ! so we get connected through FB and our blog. im gonna get her nike slipper as soon as i got the money. [:

xoxo

Number 61.

2009-09-26T00:59:00.001+08:00

Ghetto(s) crew meeting.

Crew meeting held today was fucking GREAT ! kanina. fcuk , first thing first among the seven. one paitaoed , TAK NAK SEBUT AH SIAPE KAN. Another one back out last minute. And after that the crew meeting was held at sunplaza park with the other four people , amin , haisah , dee and syikin . Signed all the paper and ready to submit !

Met ilah and rad , had much fun .
;D

Musibat , amin and rif back out last minute. Sorry isnt the word i ask , but fuck why now ? three days before submission ? Dira , kept asking me what to do with the forms and what not , easy said , just throw. Why ? ASK them. Semangat 3 minute je. ;D

Ashraf made my day , we talked for quite sometime.
and yeah im still in a bad mood.

this fcuking hafiz salim added me and chat with me at facebook.
like what the hell ? online with me ask me if im open or not ?
all i can say is guys are totally guys !

Haisah and syikin , thanks for attending the crew meeting .
Amin , Rif get just get out from my ghettos.
Wawa, terima kasih kerana memaitao crew meeting anda.
Dira , just forget about everything.
Ashraf , thanks for making my day.
;D

xoxo

Number 60.

2009-09-24T20:09:00.002+08:00

Sweets !
Guess who i saw today ?

ASHRAF ! (= yeah , my second boyfriend ? Telok kurau primary ? So cute ! i was in great pain after piercing my fifth hole. (finally) Then when i get out from the shop ilah was like saying hi to somebody , i didnt bother at first then ilah was like , ' kiff , ashraf ashraf !' then he turned and smile at me. ;D Omg , haha. And guess what happened next ? when i walked further infront he called my name and then ask me for my number. I was laughing all the way , i was so in my good mood despite the pain. Musibot , i love my new piercing. And now if i wanna buy earrings i need to buy three pairs. Carik penyakit kan this girl ? And so , asyraf and me been messaging since that moment till now. Though he's my second one and our relationship didnt really last losg because of ashshafiq. ;p We both had lots of chemistry together. Duh , i rejected ashshafiq's offer for patching up because of him .

Ilah and me made a 'treaty' during dnt lesson just now. Who gets attached first had to belanje the the not attached one. Anything , and then ilah was like , ' tak menyesal ? kau buat deal dgn aku tadi ? kau macam dah nak kalah ajeee ? ' hahaha ! noooooo , i dont think so heh.

Kiter dua like so random go out today , and piercing was a last minute thang.

Tomorrow, ghetto repub meeting. i cant wait , i have a great responsibility. i had the whole thing done consent form photocopied. and yeah thats all ;D see you people tmrw yaww.

xoxo

Number 59.

2009-09-23T21:27:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Shikif.
That was yesterday .

Surprisingly , many of my long long friends remembered my birthday and wished me. Thanks for all the wishes yaww. First to wish me , is halim. what the fuck ? and the lists goes on. Even hakiem wishes me , adli , khdhir(?) , muhsin , khairul , taufik , and this aliff dunno who. The whole day people just cant stop sms-ing me. And its irritating. But i lost my mood suddenly and i dont know why then we decided to go out and celebrate my birthday.

Planned to go plaza singapura but the irdayah canot go too far and so we decided t go e-hub and had seoul garden for our , breakfast + lunch + dinner. Because got student price then , we got in late at around 6 and by the time the promo finishes. We are in a budget so in the end we went to pastamania. The bakepasta isnt nice i prefer the one at swensens ! (= Rad , me and yani camwhored. (i forgot ! irdayah paitao.) we had fun , thought my mood isnt there. And after that we planned to go to k-box but when we reached the place at the enterance we planned to redecide again. After that i saw 'the ugly truth' poster. Then i was like , tadi siape yang gatal nak tegnok wayang ? so lets watch this. I forgot yani havent turned sixteen. then rad was like " mentang-mentang niari dier sixteen luper ke budak nie tak boleh masuk? " then we plan things out and sneaked yani in the cinema. so kekek. We ended up the only not couple there. The whole place is full with couple. what the fuck . the ugly truth is fun ! ; sex sex sex. So funny , i forget im in the NC16 range of movie. So they so tak beralas. its so sweeeeeeeeeeeeet. i almost slept in the beginging of the movie and then i started to laugh got no stop for it.

After movie , we went to this cake shop. Yani bought threee i got one i pick the oreomisu one. i dunt know i just love oreo and cheese. its so sedap man.

"calcium is needed for big breast and strong nips. "

Rad had been complaining i had been having cheese all the way thats why my breast is big. haha , what the fluck she talking right ? haha. its natural babe.

Smoke smoke smoke and then we went to our saperate ways , my mum fetch me la dey.

And today is wawa dangdut's birthday.

Guess what happened in the morning ? i didnt sadar my mum wake me. i didnt feel anythng , my adik told me the whole house lambat already thats why my mum didnt bother to wake me again to school lagipun its wednesday , i every week wednesday absent sia , where got school ? my own holiday.

Amalina told me she bought me present ? i cant even guess what.
heh.

Ghetto Republic ; crew crew crew. i finally complete the members and the operation of the crew.we are all having a dance meeting this friday for ice breaking and the talking talking for DX4 competition. I cannot miss the dateline okay ! fuck shikif. Everything is gonna be complete by friday. new members , firdaus , amin and rifdee. Wawa and sheikh cant make it so replaced bye them and the first two members cacha and syikin. i guess its a begining of smthng new. (=

xoxo

Number 58.

2009-09-17T00:44:00.003+08:00

Freshie Fresh Fresh right now !
But the' cramp is killing me.

Im working on some of my dance stuffs right now. and its going on smooth. neglecting styling-in-progress crew is a bad idea kan ? hisham is still like putting hop for that crew. he's still working on that crew till now. so i told him i can still be part of it. And i'll take care of the publicity of that crew and most of the designing work. It'll all be on me.

Legatta Republic. I think i miss out blogging about this . Guess what that sharifah go and use our crew name . not to legatta republic but to lil crew republic. LRC? what the fuck right? and she made up the excuse of making the crew banner already to ue up that name. if i'd knew it earlier i never change the idea of using 'fabulous five' . Okay as for this crew. we are still , sharing tasks to make the crew go up slowly. im working on the publicity too. Designing im part of it. but for the logo faiz is doing it for me ! yayy ! im trying to start working on the crew slowly bit by bit. Its all about passion. (=

Two more nights to raya ! ahaha. people just cant stop talking about it , macam puase only semua. pfft. at least this year i got some days of puasa and guess what ? i got my *ehem* on the first week of puase and now the last few days of puasa im having it again. omfg. and im getting the pain . the pain that is gonna stop me from having my good mood today.

Monday i never go school. Tuesday i go. Wednesday i didnt. Thursday well im going today ! Friday too. i wanna study. im eighteendays away from n levels. haha. dah cakap eh this week rest. lagipun im only semangat for maths la and history. whats with my science(s) eh macam tk berfungsi gitu.

okay , im off.

xoxo

Number 57.

2009-09-14T00:28:00.002+08:00

' shikif ' says:oky so kita sama sama childish. cume my nakal nakal im on drugs (used to) and i drink.

' shikif ' says:and and and i smoke.

' shikif ' says:peace xD

Aisyaaah' What?! says:Ohh. I budak alim ^^'

shikif ' says:i budak' naklim'

' shikif ' says:nakal+alim

Aisyaaah' What?! says:Haha '

shikif ' says:hahahahaha !

' shikif ' says:blog this man !

merepek ! ahahaha. kental , syasya and me in the middle of the night. kental jokes. i havent sleep. with these people entertaining me at night. i promise i offline at 1am. i promise.

xoxo

Number 56.

2009-09-13T23:28:00.002+08:00

Got back from iftar.
Ironed my clothes!/Pack my bags!
Malas nyeeeeee nak gi school tmrww !

xoxo

Number 55.

2009-09-13T15:06:00.004+08:00

For the past few weeks , i'd been going in and out of rivervale plaza's mac studying for my n levels . And now just a few days not going there already i've been mising my second home. Thats where me and wawa always laugh our arse out ! Pecah kepale think about this and about that. Haha. And the Textbook incident , like duh ! name dier iskandar. tsktsktsk.

Believe it or not im going iftar later, and im feeling so akward. ;p
Nani / i want choclates! ;D

What the fluck should i do this whole week sia. Going to school like shit , i dont wannt to go to school. Hating school currently. Im only semangat for maths. but maths only like one period or smth ? first few period is malay sia. then maths then chem , then english 3 period and then maths again. the only important period is maths 3 period out of the whole day in school ?

im bored. i dunno where my mother go i think she go fetch her mak mertua. And my dad is asleep. Yesteday the whole family , besides my dad ah. go clean up the house till 5am. including nadhirah loh. so bising sia macam pukul 5petang. heeeeeeeeeeeeeee. from that i think you can tell , i just woke up. SHHHHHHHHHH!

im going to unprivate my blog. and before doing that , i wanna change the url first.
whats my new url heh?

xoxo

Number 54.

2009-09-12T21:31:00.003+08:00

Lets talk about today ! i woke up around 130pm thats the earliest for the week .After hat i went out to watch Upin and ipin again ? and after that i watched gaduh gaduh sayang. the one yand combination of singapore and malaysia. And its so funny. Haha ! it ends at four ! then i wat hindustan ' HUMTUM ' saif ali khan and rini mukejee.(sp) it was so romantic. i watch till i almost cried.

After that buka ! kemas/my rooom. then go kedai, after that online !

With this random faiz, i dont know just appear at my contacts. and we're busy talking about school and studies. Nabilah and Nani also online with me! i layan them , and nani misses me ! So good news for all my cousins tmrw , im going to iftar tmrw. haha.

Before iftar i going study with nabilah . she's so scared about n levels ? can you imagine.? she still have a year 3 weeks? whears i only have 3 weeks left? ohhhhhhhhhh. my next paper is combined science and history. after that maths and dnt.

fcuk ; do you know that both c.science and history falls on the same day with no breaks?

Alah nevermind, i wanna keep my mind off. one week break sampai raye. Then after that , i guess , i'll start working non stop for the next two weeks until my paper starts. Raya ! nafis was like ' jeng jeng jeng ! dalam masa seminggu kiter sudah jadi orang kaya ! hahaha. '

xoxo

Number 53.

2009-09-12T00:40:00.003+08:00

ABANG BALIK ! (=

Been waiting for these moment. yes ! like finally he came back. All these while after me and sasha been babbling about him . When he came back baru dah tk ribut sangat. Yesssssssssss/i miss him like so much. i dreamt about him the first night after he go. He like ask me out or msth then we kept talking talking . then he like give me 90% confidence to wait for him. And then we go on be like TTM and blah blah blah ? whats behind the irritating dream ? i dont know. its not that i dont like to have those sweet dreams. its just that i dont like to bawak bawak. good if it happens sampai ke anak cucu eh?

speaking of TTM ! i met muhsin the other day at plaza after all my paper finish. the day i dreamt about it. me and wawa is just bored and we got nothing to do. i hate chemistry remember? dengan pantas muhsin sampi. naik motor what? then we laugh non-stop on all the jokes he had. and thats when the TTM tingy comes. he say wawa and zul TTM eh ? then wawa says yes. then he was like ," haha! TAK TAHU MALU " then he ask me so many question la halim la , khidhir and etc. and i simply cant smoke infront of him. if only the cigars cost a few cents memang dah kene patah dah tu rokok sekotak .he dont let me smoke. but i want ! we three had a great time together, though. like everytime im down about halim , i always turn to him. cause i need to laugh man !

So since just now while i've been waiting for him to online.i've bee kemaskini ing my dance consentforms and filling in those blanks . i dont think collab with TFF is a good idea , i wanna my crew to masuk by its ownself. Sheikh is in ! Cacha is in ! wawa ! & caramel ! DX4 is a fresh start for Legatta Repub.

Dangdut is the music of my country !
My country oh my country!
Wawa dangdut's fault . ;p
I got stuck with this genre.

xoxo

Number 52.

2009-09-11T16:04:00.003+08:00

I always forgot that its term three holiday break. Yeah , that just three days of school make it feels like its not a holiday. This is the second day im rotting at home , the plan of going out to get earrings and etc was cancelled. One has to go to ICA building to get passport. another one has to finish up homework at home. haha. i never do any homework when im still in lower sec ;p

Today when i woke up i watched danceflick , upin&ipin again ? and now i watching tangisan bulan madu ! random. i just switch youtube on , i thought of watching manjalara but there is the encore season later at 4pm. so since im so interested in tangisan bulan madu right now , why shouldnt i ? Tangisan bulan madu like so pathetic la,

School's friendship sucks. I mis syakirah like god knows what. Wawa is always nice , the other two eh ? haha. that one i dont know. God knows what are they gossipping about us both. tsktsktsk. Babes ,its just like a few weeks left. To be specific , three weeks left. And after that , yeah ! no more these probblem and that problem. I got a job offered by muhsin he wants to quit his work then i say give me your job instead la. he told me that times @ TampOne is hiring . 1hour/$5.50 doks. Starbucks offered only $4.50 one dollar diffrence can take two bus you know. Higer chances im taking that one , and you know me. i so pemalas wanna go interview here and there. jobhunting la what not. lets get the short cut !

If you think whatever you do/say is your own originality. If
you turn back on research then you'll realize that other people had use those
quotes too. All i can say is , if you feel the heat , its you im talking
about !

Percaye tak next week sunday raye ? i thought its like lagi lama or smth. to my horror its just like next week ? i just knew ade lagu raye kat radio ! cause my mum always tell me lagu raya keluar second week of puase. i owe my mum like 10 bucks for my irritating earpiece. i wouldnt ask her to buy for me if it isnt part of my basic needs.

Believe it or not also my sweet sixteen is coming up !
;D

What am i going to do after my N levels eh ?
*suggestions please!*

xoxo

Number 51.

2009-09-10T21:53:00.004+08:00

zeroeight.nine.oh-nine.

We both had our last night! It was fun! i actually forget about that night until i chatted with sasha in the afternoon. i called him at twelve midnght when i was otw home. then we continued our conversation till like almost four. he kept bullying me ! how irritaring, he kept caling me short la. Then i ask him what he want last from me ? he wants me to study hard and another one is just one word 'PUASE' ! haha. macam tahu tahu jer i dont. when i was with him i did puasa eh ? from sec one till sec three. and dulu dulu ah. then after breakup. gueh sudah nonsense , kadang2 je puasa tak active. and since that last wish he wnt me to do. i get it granted ! haha. since that day till last day of puasa i will . insyallah eh? -.-'

Social studies paper. was fun ! the SEQ. SBQ kurang ajar nak mampos. keluar pasal aper entah about some luos and shits. amzing thins is, its not in the textbook at all. semua nampak paper , muke blank ?

090909.

HAPPY ANNI DEE !
though i hate your boyfriend still.

English paper was like a sleeping pill.
They guys and me that conquer infront bace passage sampai tertutup mater. And sai sampai terhantuk meja. so funny. But srsly it was so tiring.

I slept when i reach home with my school uniform till its buka time . And after that go smoke cums mandi . then malam at around 11 went to johor.Shoped like irritating , they go find these and that. where i only bought a nike slipper. hehe. yeah another one. and i get wawa's birthday present. thats all , bubblegum pun tk beli sey what the fuck ? thats the most important thing when i reched msia. bought DVDs dance flick and upin and ipin the movie. Reached home at around 430. go sahur then watch upin and ipin till i sleep.

today ! i woke up at 5pm! despite my mum swithced off the fan and aircon already. i can still survive man ! woohoooo !

And now im karaoke-ing ! byebye !
besok halim balik ! yayyyyy !

xoxo

Number 50.

2009-09-07T14:44:00.001+08:00

i screwed up my malay paper!
i think because im late in the morning ?

but overall the paper was quite easy , and fro my karangan of cause ade orang mati. DUH !i was freaking emotional today lah. for my paper one.

im not gonna screw my socialstudies paper tomorrw.
i've been working on 6 pathetic topics for that subjects.

today i'll be at plaza again. revising !
let me guess , confirm iskandar ade? cause kiter semua semangat social studies.;p

Bob onlined !
Despite the busy moments,i still sempat layan some people though. During my break time haha, of cause.

To those who texted me yesterday to wish good luck.
thanks a lot.

i am very pathetic cause im using 3 diffrent numbers. two numbers in one phone the other one at another hp. so yeah, sorry for the late reply. -.-' mane tak nye. satu no. for taufik. cause my international banyak nak mampos. second one , for wawa and the other friends. and another one for cousins. my original number is my starhub no loh. yang ade berlambak international.

okay i wanna sleep nanti malam takd tenaga nak makan.
hehe.

xoxo

Number 49.

2009-09-04T17:42:00.004+08:00

Been super duper busy !

can you people just believe it n level is just 2 days away? fcuk ! socil studies essaysss! gawd i need to do my revision fast and finish up all the chapters by sunday.!

lots of tragedies did happened. th one that i wont forget most is about yesterday. haha!

wawa and shikif is studying at rivervale plaza's macdonalds . and after that , there's this one freaking mat kept looking at shikif. shikif as usual , no tatatertib. she laugh like nobody buisness and sit a lot like a jantan. who cares ? and after that. shikif forgot to bring her ss textbook and this mat did have the book that she needed the most on the table. so shikif , tanpa segan silu , she came to the guy and say " can i borrow you ss tb please? ;D "

i embarassed wawa. haha !

and we both cant stop giggling after that.

so affter im done. i gave back to him and say , "thank you."

he smiled and i smiled.

so once again ! a mat saved my day!

no matter how much you hate guys , dierong tetap akan menolong anda pada masa yang amat darurat. (what the fluck am i talking sia? )

alright im running late !

going out right now.

oh, btw legatta fab and TFF is collaborating for this years' dance explosion four.

wooooohoooooooooooooo!

im in ! and im in !

xoxo

p.s im blogging at wawa's hommey.

Number 48.

2009-08-29T16:57:00.001+08:00

No matter how much we fight in a conversation or in messages in just a few hours, we'll be back to normal again. Forgetting the problem that we're quarelling about. And after that the problems isnt resolved actually. Things will be dragged on an on after that but still the decision remains the same.

xoxo

Number 47.

2009-08-28T22:40:00.005+08:00

AMIRUL HALIM.
I dont get you. i dont know what more you want from me thats number one and number two, what in the world did i do wrong to you till i gotta deseve this !

Some truth spills out in school just now that i just gotta know about this amirul . I was quite shocked , i thought is just one story afterall that i have to ignore and nw ths amirul is doing the same thing. hmmmmm. i cant state everything i know now. we're doing a further invstigation into this and looking foward to this circumstances.

If the person i thought amirul is , its really him . That person is gonna get it from my two people. (: Dah tiga kali , sepatotnye kene jalan tangan aku bela kau, pasal ape ? PASAL SAYANG ! YOU SHIT. and now no more muke dah takde kesian kesian. gi mampos , kalau kau tak getak pon what the fuck do i care ? kau continue uh kau pey game nie sekarang. if this carry on , i'll just say yes to the both of them. I got 6 evidence to say you are the one. And when my instinct tells me its you , it means its you. what more can you deny?

Nak revenge , tak perlu on the spot. i cn keep the grudge with me , sampai biler biler. maybe you dont remember it but i will .i wont forget you and also the things that you'd done. And i'll make shure you get it worst than i do.

xoxo

Number 46.

2009-08-28T00:38:00.004+08:00

Abang muhsin ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Sweet 20 eh pantat? ; kepale otak.

Irritating mati mati tak nak admit yang dier tua. Time flies so fast eh ? haha. sekejap only im having my sweet sixteen. The last time i knew im just thirteen and he's seventeen. Irritating eh ? baru masok sekolah dah dapat matahyr senior. ;p Sec five pulak tu.

Khidhir text me just now. He said he dreamt about me , blah blah blah. Sweetalkermuthafcuker. kau ingat senang senang ke kau nak " kelentong" aku ? Eh, bahase m'sia ! cute eh dah belajar word baru setiap hari ?

Legatta Republic! Coming right up.

xoxo

Number 45.

2009-08-27T23:58:00.003+08:00

what you want ,you'll never get.

what you miss ,will never miss you back.

what you dont treasure, will treasure you much.

what you always wanted to come true ,will never do.

xoxo

Number 43.

2009-08-26T15:29:00.004+08:00

I never go to school today , because i malas.

Study dates. ; always been with wawa. yesterday was at hougang. this saturday i think we'll be at town cause we wanna watch the suntec dance comp. supporting zimah ! and alip ! this sunday maybe studying at woodlnds so wawa can meet her pathetic sickening and irritting boyfriend. ! ;D i had donuts yesterday from the donutempire . satu only, despite tak puasa i only had donuts and old chang kee sotongstick for the whole day. if not because of wawa also i dont think i'll eat. These days , macam malas nak makan. oreo ! 8) i want oreo. i want milk. twist lick and dunk !

My face looks diffrent? two person tegur. Manto and Uccie. whats with me? does my face acually look diffrent ? Even teck wee says i look diffrent lately. korang nie dah kenape ?heh. Whats with the physical change in me? whats with the change in emotion.? i cannot cry anymore, srsly i cant. not a single teardrop .Whats with me? whats my problem ?

Besok abang muhsin punye birthday and kak dee. Yeap! Muhsin and me texted each other, bias eh shikif ? orang lain nyer msg dier taknak reply. pilih memilih ! bukan choosy , prepaid low. muhsin lagi penting drpd korang, menyakitkan hati. Okay , he doesnt like me calling him abang cause he just canot accepct the fact that he's damn old. 20 this year ! haha. kental punya olang.Dah tua tu buat hal tua only la. he's my oldest friend actually. for a guy la , girl the oldest is 27.

i love talking 'cinglish' cause lately lots of nyonya and apek been talking to me in chinese asking me for direction , and whatsoever. my face like chinese meh ?

Bob says my reaction with him is diffrent already. We quarelled yesteday, he say im not serious with him . First thing , dier sorang aku dah tak terlayan. Mane lagi yang lain , i got no time for him . He actually wants attention from me or what? And after that i dont get what is his motive to actually, to say i got somebody else ? kau pikir kelakar kepe ? I told you , nak tunggu tak nak cakap ad simply get lost. ;D kau tak rugi and aku pon tk rugi. last but not least, we are both not haing anything with each other ? why must you actually bother much things that i do. I hate having guy friends , cause i know this kind of shit will happen eventually.

im very happy ! i love me so much ! heh.

xoxo

Number 42.

2009-08-26T00:28:00.003+08:00

Till the day you left , i'd always tell myself that this story isnt going to end here. Theres a continuation to this story its just that its gonna take a long period of production , hard endurements , and pain before everything is going on smoothly. If dulu , i say i will wait for you for another two years. i will , and the two years arrive already,finally its 2009. And now you are putting me under probation for another two years again , not under my circumstance but under yours. What else can i say ? i'd always love you so another 2 years isnt going to be any matter to me.

Is history going to repeat itself again ? do you believe in karma in the first place? i am going to ITE soon. higher nitec ? , nitec ? i dont know. what if the same thing repeats two years back ? when the day he got into that freaking college. He suddenly change his heart again in just two months or smth? ? He automatically change .A very drastic change that actually fucked me upside down and ruined my life away. And after that after all the efforts we put in , we almost got together again , but we're ruined by this arsehole that actually ruined my name. And create some intelligent stories about me.anf after that ,no more chance i had left.

What if i berubah hati like him ?
What if i change my mind ?
What if i dont love him anymore?
What if im going to ruined his life like he did to mine?
What if i have another penggnti like him ? (he does have one penganti eh.)
What if all of this thing happens ?

i know i love him , a lot. and i dont think thats going to happen.

this is random , i know this new blog im not souppose to blurt out anything about him. im sorry , but i just ____ him ___ much.

xoxo

Number 41.

2009-08-23T15:00:00.002+08:00

Studying at night = better concentration .
No tv , no nothing no what . i met wawa yesterday night after buka at compasspoint. the we headed to rivervale plaza . and around there at mac. i had fun , its just that my mood wasnt there. Basically we talk mostly about succeeding in life. I told her its not to late if you want that to come true , we are just 5 weeks away from our dreams. Nak seribu daya tak nak seribu dalih , haha ! what a malay! Then we lepak until lammmbatt sekali , haha. Tunggu nie sorang member Aleppaitao. Baru sekali jumpe , dah kene label. When i got home at around 2:30 then i continued my ss. i complete 2 chapter full. until like 5:30am ? then makan breakfast macam dieorng ! padehal , tak puase. ;p *one week mc*

im getting bored and i start disturbing my cntacts. haha.
sorry , you see shikif nye orang banyak ikot mood.

having family gathering today , and you know . i hate family gathering , what the fuck ? i love meeting my cousins <3 but not so much my makcik. what else can they do beside , mengutuk orang lain right?

xoxo

3 cheers for 5 years - Mayday Parade.

2009-08-22T19:52:00.002+08:00

I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you

To late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember now
Sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
How does he feel, how does he kiss
How does he taste while he's on your lipsI can't forget you
I know you want me to want youI want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forgive you
I know you want me to want you I want to

Check this out , mayday parade - three cheer for five years.

xoxo

Number 39.

2009-08-21T00:40:00.002+08:00

Finally , prelims ended today.

As you guess , physics was nonsense , 15 minutes and thats it , i was asleep fr the next one hour. paper prelim tau , heh. mampos nie perempuan . and after that i just gotta know that dnt paper was next. cincai loh, hentam sajelah. we can still talk duirng the examination. Dnt paper , first question only semua was looking at each other. question mark sia , question ?

from today onwards i have to puuuuuuuuuush myself towards myself now. no more playing. i'll not blog for some reason , and i wont online. cause , online menyakitkan hati eh. serious.I aint going to school tmrw, i wanna study. im two topics ahead from my plans rght now. thats better than never. i dont wanna top up my prepaid. heh.

puasa is in two days time. heh. okay , bazaar geylang . what a thing eh ? me and syasya just planned to lepak there on of those days before n level . nak lepak dgn uccie and wawa , like last year. and in the end , dot dot dot. what happen to all the plan man ? the pit. the chalet. the drinking thing. the shake. aisey bedah.-__-'

the fun i use to have a few days back just gone in a split second. it looks like many of us are affected that bad after sya had gone away. the joy the laughter all , is not in the scene anymore. i dont know what to do.

i was shot with a good question just now.
but i cant think about the answr.

xoxo

Number 38.

2009-08-19T00:28:00.004+08:00

18th sentiase swey !

first and for all , farewell to my bestest sasha fierce. she was sent to girls home just now afternoon after her court case. it was so unfair , we couldnt say anyth to her before she left. cause its unexpected , we thoought she'd just be under probation or taggin . but things got more worst than ever. we're having our prelims when she text us and everyone was so down when we gotta know about it. wawa cried , rad did too , and also ilah . i tried to do so at first but i didnt ,until everyone left me alone then i started bursting out. And i cried infront of audy , for goodness sake its so embarassed. Audy was so depressed at that moment. He cried too much , he's so sweet . last week they kindda broke off ahwile and audy came to our port(heh.) begging for sya back . and though sya ignored , he still cried for her infront of us. and now sya dah masuk , things got worst . he's trying to get back into drugs and he just get involve in an accident. omfg. whats gonna happen next ?

Rad , wawa and me just kindda cam back from waterbreaker. we pour out everything there. so like yesterday cried at the waterbreak and today i did also . but this time , i was the idiotic one very egoist tak nak nagis so selfish to my tears. And i kept pretending to be happy infront of them both and make them laugh as i do . haha. shikif = fun !

then rad started to say if shikif masuk what will happen eh bby ?then i was like oh entah ? then she said what you know or not ? " aku nagis berstandby kotak tissue sia." okay , then we danced ! play guitar , my and wawa coreographed , like no body buisness , who cares ! its just pasir ris park eh ? Overall , sasha was admitted for 1 years 3 months. first two weeks , girlshome. the rest petapis. what the fuck ? sya ,we'll be missing you yaww ?

Audy asked me ," sya akan lupe kan aku tak kif ? " my answer is nope.

"Kalau kau jadi aku aper kau buat ? " my answer is , wait for her.

eighteen is always swey , cause it used to be my fuciking anniversary . and then now its this ?

Prelims paper.
History - was super easy . so give away questions.
English paper 2. - Not that bad also , i got most of the content in my head.
Maths paper 1 - Quite okay , i throw away 4 marks. haha.
Chemistry - Hentam sajela , if i did pass means its my luck , cmon its science? im not interstd la .

Physics tmrw! Bagus la tak belajar terus. Balik pukul 12 adela. And now i wanna watch iceage3. this is gonna be cute ! Bsok please have eyebags and fuck that viknesh up eh ! pasal dier kawan aku masuk . Arsehole.

I've been gg to school with acin everyday . yaay ! at least i have a partner to teman me to school now rather then i alone. (8

Blow me a kiss ? yeaaah , beeen all time favourite. and wait ? where is that " blow me a kiss?" i dont know. i think he's with his ego moments .im not going to message him not because i dont care about him . i wanna see hoe far he can go eh ? sampai ke thailand ke. hmmmmmmmmm.

xoxo

Number 37.

2009-08-16T12:34:00.005+08:00

This wee random pictures moments.

All my pictures are at my friends phone. huhu

DandT slack moments. High people. Acin Spec.

Akim Kecik

Normal Lesson time. the view from where i sit.

Coffee Bean !

Marina Photos , there's more at sasha's phone.

Sya isnt ready for this !

RADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD OH RAD ! ;D

Sasha fierce !

Uccie and wawa , yayy ! finally broken up with nini. Busted kan aku ? haha. good what ? So now everything is up to them both , im always happy for them if they are going to be couples !

xoxo

Number 36.

2009-08-16T12:05:00.002+08:00

Shopping was fun , i took a few hours off the thing im souppose to do. I shop-ed ! with the rest , the four(s) wawa was looing for a skirt and im searching for a long sleeve. i got mine at cotton on .searching for white , but ade kerosakkan teknikal ,jarang giler! so cannot buy cross out ! so i got black and grey . My point was to get the short sleeve shirt the black and white one. but yeah , th long sleeve is more important to me.Wawa bought a new black skirt and its so cute. I dont find the purple one that i crave for. -_-'

Headed to esplanade. we walk duh , (as usual , rad complained.) haha. so we did took lots of pictures and start studying at marina. the mac there. Ramai sangat orang , duh. its the M&M day. (Mats and Minahs day!) We are so concentrating on our work and ignore those people around us. At night Uccie came down ! okay , lamer tak nampak . and he kept shotting me with tissue bullets and of cause i'll be the one behaving like an idiot and he'll be the one tahan malu . We've got lots of stories to share like dah lama tak jumpe. talktalktalktalktalk . Then otw to esplanade rooptop we saw imran ajmain . (:

Rep out at around 1030, bused to bedok inter. and then took 168 from there straight home. Despite being so tired after one whole day , this brother of mine told me not to sleep and wait for him to finish chatting with zuzu. Sampai pukul tiga ! At the same time i was watching iceage 3. the cerite so kekek. im watching it the third time for the day.

im still tired ! gahgahgah!

im having maths tuition today, with my two other charles angels. ; nabilah and wahidah . and im so tired ! this is gonna be the last week of prelims and im just two weeks away from my n's !

caramel caramel caramel .

xoxo

p.s khidhir randomly text me yesterday. wtf?

For you.

2009-08-11T23:37:00.003+08:00

I dont know what you want from me . you're confusing me. i dont even think you even know what you want in your life. nobody is perfect , nothing is perfect !not even me. thats the thing. your goals keep changing and changing .you have no sense of direction ? cabot la class , lari la from everyone pergi sane sini . if that makes you feel good and better, then off then go ahead. running away from your problem makes you be a coward. yes , you are one indeed. Thats not solution , thats called attention seeking . cause when you run away from everyone you would want to wait and see , whos that idiot who would want to come and run for you. isnt that attention seeking ? The competition like a few days ago , you remembered you back up just because theres too much problem ? c'mon problem will keep coming , you dont even have to call them they'll come and find you. the worst thing you can do is just run away from the problem and go to that sumwhere and enjoy yourself alone ? thats not the way , thats what looser will do ! like my kakak ? if you carry on like this then i tell you you wont go far . cause to you life is about people coming for you , you're used to that way . not you mixing around with much people and look for each other at times. you are one idiotic that wouldnt want to go around looking for people instead you want people to look for you. you cant accepct people who doesnt appreciate you . every people that is around you now is the one that treasure you so much but once they get uphold of you , when they left you you feel alone. and you feel useless. and thats what you are encountering right now , you feel so useless about yourself . yes you can be rendah diri but not so much to a certain extend that you hate yourself.

it doesnt mean i diam , i have nothing to say about you and i wont say anything. you have to know i am busy .i will blurt out smth when im free enough and this is the one !

taufik bin bahar , that crappy shit above is all for you.

p.s i can be your inspirartion or whatever , but remember im just your friend.

Number 35.

2009-08-11T19:05:00.003+08:00

I suck for social studies prelim !
keluar pasal bende malaysia ke hape entah. i study about US and dier keluar pasal malaysia ? jauh beza tau nie dua topic ?

Just end everything tomorrow and stop pressurizing us!
Half of the class gave up on deee and teee , we couldnt push ourselfs further. and Damn ilah who back up after a few months ? two days before submission , tanpa segan silu dier kate dier nak give up ? belle , only quiters quit . we both are like the two fastest creature among the whole class and now you just wanna back up ? sot sekejap siak aku . Whears , im done with everything ! my presentation board , my journal ! left the pasting only.

I salute this people : Affendi , Johanis , Hakim , Teck Wee , Yuan cong and Victor. These people though they are slow at least the little thing they could do is come to me and ask me. I did helped them though im busy with my own work . We did went out to do our things together not like the others that only talk big wanna pass. dnt punyela senang nak pass and blah blah blah tapi tak buat ape ape. Action speaks louder than words.

I cried just now , know why ? cause i dont know how to colour. kiwak three times i draw and my colouring hacur ! i cant colour ! thats the thing , and in th end the guys colour for me. this is why im not an art student . i just cant colour. but at least i did try eh . (sampai menangis tawwwww. )

i owe myself an ice cream !

xoxo

Number 34.

2009-08-10T11:37:00.004+08:00

Life's been great. I have better self confidence in myself .Im on that pace when i'd longed for years.Nothing is stopping me from getting what i want. This is me and this is what i want it to be.

xoxo

Number 33.

2009-08-10T11:16:00.005+08:00

the bbq was fun ! and all i did was just eat ! i didnt even touch the fishing rod. i only did the set up and then off i go to bbq with nafis. haha ! from our spot we could see the NDP fireworks and they were some people like so jakons ! and the singapore flg flew at the top of my head. haha .woooohooooo !

Not that much mats and minahs .

thats so heaven , yp yp !

Handphone been switched off ! food is all i concentrate on . like in a week i eat only thrice ? and i purposely keep myself not touching any food before the bbq. cause i know once i start i cant stop . lepas makan abey tidur. ;p for two hours and its so hot. then lepas tu dah bangun , makan lagi ! hehe.

then at night , i switch on my phone back and text alot with this sumone.

and from tomorrow on wards , no messaging from 8am to 8pm.

Actually to save prepaid , can you believe it ? this week baru top up i've used up like more than 25 bucks ? ape sia aku buat ?for local only. international , i dont mind. like everything is free. tak pernah pernah .

xoxo

Number 32.

2009-08-09T12:18:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore !

I think i wake up quite early , at 12petang. ;p early what ? i slept at around 4 yesterday. So as usual , the three people would msg me first thing in the morning ; Bob , and then Taufik and then Zai . but you know what ? i havent even reply any of their message. I will reply as soon as im free yaww.

In mind im thinking about the crew. Yes and i dont know why , i think five is enough. 2 boys and 3 girls , know what ? though the more the merrier , you should see some of those people's perangai when dier nyer semangat setakat 5 minute je semangat nak dance. Banyak la dieorang nyer ' dancing is my soul ' i got one example , errrr .. (guess sendiri name dier!) people in the crew ; Syabeel and his friend , then wawa , dira , and me ! im the one coreographing most of it with dira and wawa then we need sheikh's help for the boys. Sheikh is the master for this and that stupid pop and lock which i srsyly sucks in that . So yeah , five is just five. and anymore going in ? you are so welcome ! Sheikh , you are so needed !

going to finish up my so the sial studies revision !
so yeah , happy celebrating the nation birthday.

i would love to upload pictures for today.
please heal this computer soon !

xoxo

Number 31.

2009-08-09T00:52:00.003+08:00

heyheyhey.

What am i doing right now ? preparing what to study for the next four weeks left .Yes ! its getting so near and im getting more scared. Prelims is next week , thank god first 2 papers its just malay so i have time to catch up for my social studies. I did went to nenek house and then go get bubble tea ! padahal sekolah dekat giler tau , tu pun takde time nak pergi beli . Met nabilah then but seriously we got no mood to do so . Nothing is getting in head.

Yeah every week we gotta our own story to tell and after so long then suddenly we blurt out about hal . haha. if you think im still goig after him and what not ? im so sorry that you are so wrong , im not interested in him anymore hes no longer what i crave for. heh. To he himself or just anyone out there , please takmu feeling feeling eh ? oh ! i didnt know he was actually waiting for my company , cause he said " i thoughtyou dah mati dah lama menghilang " sorry , i dont have time for you eh ? aku nak tidur pun takde time. And i just wanna say this , PLEASE LA EH ? i cant be bothered with you. After that he didnt reply, he ought to be shocked with this sudden change of me.

So i have a question for myself , who change me ? is it beacause of kit kat ? bob ? or just beacause im busy ?
think the answer for me.

When i reached home , i straight away sleep with my bag sill beside me and everything hadnt even in place. i told you im tired kan kan kan ?

So now here i am awake , going to continue my bonding singapore. Aisey bedah . -_-'

BBQ tomorrow , east coast ! For count down this year im not going for any stupidfamily bbq ke ape eh ? im booked for countdown with my friends ! standard actuall eer year like that but last year i went with khairul , go chalet and drink ! i had so much fun !

goodgirl please !

xoxo

Number 30.

2009-08-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

having bad eyebags .

i havent had enough sleep thanks to all those inconsiderate people la . who else? that wants me to accompany them . when i souppose to study. so now , hanphone is a total distraction.i just feel like throwing it away !

xoxo

Number 29.

2009-08-08T00:15:00.006+08:00

Get a life.
You're given the opportunity for two years and frankly speaking its long enough. Those days i suffer and those tears i shed. Finally everything ends , and now just stop getting me involve in you and get real !

xoxo

Number 28.

2009-08-07T22:31:00.003+08:00

Let rep out this week shits together in one post!
Hey hello !

Tuesday 4.8.2009
School : During dnt lesson all the malays kindda slacked. And i was doing my typing at laptop and it suddenly shuts ! when i havent even sae my document. Siak betol , peh sort. After school , to my horror i was just a few seconds late to my usual spot , the police came. and Sharil was caught for smoking , contraband i think ? and got fined for $500 abey dah kene tangkap go put the whole group's name in his report. belle , and he doesnt even hang out with us lah since june holiday sejak dah dgn his kindda gf. then part takde rokok , pandai la carik kiter semue. Followed nad to bedok inter and top up handphone ! (:

Wednesday 5.6.2009
Each and everyone of us had our own thang to do . i did studied on this wednesday , i didnt sleep . heh . Exepct for some lesson i just get out of class like mdm aishah's lesson cause shes so naggy then go smoke ! cannot tahan . For maths sit infront , for science sit behind , history sit infront english sit behind ! hehe. last period english , then cabot ! haha. Had our own remedials after that , i had no choice but to go cause dateline is just next week the tweleveth . Im like the one that is so fast foward , but still im so kalangkabot. why didnt the rest had the sense of urgency like i do ? haha. my presentation board is half done ! Done with reme , the OM get out out for lunch+dinner at macds. which he owe use like 3 months ago , sekarang baru we're free. then when we got in there's the express dnt students. their muke when they saw us and mr lim , macam nampak ape entah . of cause they'll be thinking like , " asl nie lima minah dgn cikgu confirm kena tangkap rokok or loitering around void deck ! " but hell no ! we're all here for a treat . ad Nad also joined us. (: Then then then we all lepak ahwile like dah lama tak hang out . but its just ilah is missing out . tu ppn , srsly im speechless.

Thursday 6.8.2009
Happy Birthday Syasya ! yes ! its fierce's birthday . im the second one to text her ?first its wawa. haha. ours is on the 22nd and 23rd next month , haha. Surprise surprise ! The day is kindda bored and ilah is not in school again when there's dnt. and im like so frustrated , her journal is incomplete siak not even half ? and presentation board jgn cakap ! one whole day doing dnt . i only pay attention for malay which is befor dnt. then after that all he way i do my presentation board at the back of the class. and that aishah way busy nagging infront. about prelim is next week . Yesssss , i know about it !!! While i was doing my stuffs half of my class , was busy having an interclass match with the whole level and our girls team was trashed by a sec five class like 5-0 ? i didnt joined cause im having a bad body ache , i really cant move that much . i sat for hours and didnt even walk around. After staying back , went to chai chee , met manto and wawa then continue out folio and our diffrent projects to complete. I go and buy L&M menthol ? so tak sedap man . but the merah one nice , hmm . lesson to be learn la eh ?

Friday 7.08.2009
Happy Birthday Sabree ! Evry school is celebrating national day today and evryone is wearing red ! haha. kental . you know i was the first one to get out of home and like when its early there's not many students then i was so kental , i scared i slah hari wear red shirt . and im the only one wearing it . haha. i was late a bit , because of my bello abang who wake me up at 615am which its souppose to be at 530 .belle , my dad send loh. my hair tooks me 30 mins to layan tau ! Sempat ah smokey smokey. then this pasir ris sec guy was like , okay i mean the mat bustop was like . " Niari fierce siak dekni bawak rokok steady siak macam dah legal gitu " abey he asks me if im sec 2 ? hello do i look like im fourteen years old ? maaaak , im sixteen siak . grow up bby grow up . then i so angry he call me budak kecik and my bus came at the right time so i just belah ! hmmph. there's a continuation of handball comp . its the semifinal , and yeah my group 2 boys is in .and we got 2nd ! better than nothing. its all the mats and co. haha. the kental one was trashed by a sec five team . siak eh ? but the game was fun ! and then during the match at quadrangle , me and wawa embarassed sheeren live ! infront of all the audience. we were calling her merepek la peypek la and als hidung babi .

i was craving for nasi lemak dunno why today ? and i couldnt find any one. then on my way to get cheese fries we saw her again , i told her ah handphone aku yang kau curik aku halalkan , then she still can step kerek lagi cakap who says i took it ? maaaaak , if only tak ramai orang tad lalu lalang memang dah kene piaaaaaak ! dgn gueh ? the i just belah she gaudh berdua with wawa and even farahin the one yang innocent pun kene ? tak sort ? if nad ade confirm sheereen is so gone ! met ilah and syasya after that they went to tampines mall , dgn baju sekolah ? go get their studs ? i thought in baju rumah lupe nyer cabot sekolah . ;p abey tak tahu nak ajak ? last year national day celebration we cabot go esplanade haha. and bugis . kental eh kiter ? lol. planned to go tindek my anohter hole for my left year and in the end we got no time syasya need to go meet her probation officer. then wawa tangan kotor , rad and dayah everyone didnt turn up cause they have a big case in the office. weez go curik handphone ? from the same person dulu then bla3. im not involve.

Next week coming up , prelim dates , english n level oral exam ! cums halims bdae(and im not wishing him a happy bdae.tak kuasa aku , tgk ah cmne.) , then got what sia ? oh ! submission of dnt folio and presentation board. and im shure im gonna have study date with wawa , nabilah or smth . i need to buy my pens and continue my revision . i cant skipp my bbq , cause i just have to go !

Tomorrow , meeting nab and going to bedok . meet nenek and etc. suddenly everyone is going missing . then meet ilah go buy bdae present for syasya , we're buying for her a bracelet then with her name engraved. cool kan ? wawa , lala , and me planned.

Been having a badbody ache , i cant laugh , sneeze and also cough ! part cannot laugh tu its kindda disaster for me . i just need to laugh . i have to , its gerekk man .and wawa is trying to scare me by saying its appendix. ;( okay , im so scared. i remember muhsin straight away ! i remember how worriedi was when he confessed he got it.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Okay , isnt it too long already ?

Bob , luck for tmrws gig.

xoxo

Number 27.

2009-08-03T21:11:00.004+08:00

Terlanjur cinta - Rossa ?
Tak Mungkin kerna sayang - Alya?
Takdir Cinta - Rossa ?
Sampai Disini ( rock version) - Merah feat. Herlina.

Those track really crash my whole house down !

School ; was bored. i hadnt sleep one whole night. and finally i took advantage of my 3 period english . in the end i oly slept forhalf an hour and the rest i did comprehension . huhu . rad been bugging me to bangun . her life is so incomplete without my jokes cracking .yeah , i know. And i sound about the handphone thing. She's quite pissed but actually irdayah never blamed her for anyh. dier yang a lot OVER.

i feel like throwing my phone away . i cant stand messages with no keypad and with this mini iphone thingy. omfg.

After school , there's 2 mat kotai sitting infront of school . kindda waiting for his gf. and then we ask them fr cigars good thing tk lokek. then they offer us , they say they are selling cigars. haha . so we bought we bought. they are kindda stupid and then guess what ? we got extra one box. i gave nad and rad 3 sticks each and i had the rest all to myself. free !

Yesterday, hmmmm. got gaduh besar . as usual , i dont start my talking until it reaches the limit . and thank god , it worked. mata and hati dier terbuka , finally ! one whole night tak tidur takpe , at least sumone sedar from smth . gaduh dgn siape eh ? - _____________.

caramel caramel caramel !
is that my new name or smth ?

if you are sumone that doesnt talk a lot ?
doesnt entertain my crappy nonsense ?
please , dont bother entertain me !

Met bob today . we are both super tired. then i rush home for my malay homework , yeah i know kental . zaman biler buat homewrk ? i dont want to sit depan office la . haha .

xoxo

Number 26.

2009-08-02T19:15:00.004+08:00

Boyfriend , a friend thats not a girl .
but its a boy, paham ?

Sorry if im gonna be not beralas eh ,
i wanna sound this nosense.

Boyfriend 1 : insertnamehere.

What do you think im am the kind of person? just be friends for a few months and when i get new friend i'll ditch you out of my life ? and you mentioned im getting bored of you right now. i am mad at you , yes not about anything but about this ! you are trying to tell me that im the kind of person that ditch anyone after i get bored of them and have a lot of replacement after that ! - argh ! nonsense ! padehal , i never neglect you before. well , maybe i did because im super busy with my own schedule. ad sometimes prepaid low , so be understadnign la please ? i'd give you support in whatever you're doing . sometimes , i sounds like i taknak layan or malas nak layan . but its like what ilah said me and husaini are the type of creatures that will just diam but actually we bother about you people. its just that we want you to think about your own problem yourself before we come into the picture. we want you to be mature and think abotu the problem you create yourself. and this is what i get ? one super big clue to get to know who you are , im none other better than a char kway teow in singapore. that food is so much better and super more important than me.

Boyfriend 2 : insertnamehere.

We've been friends for quite a long time since we're in primary school . we are getting quite close but srsly , im not accepcting you more than just friends. - i dont understand you.

Boyfriend 3 : insertnamehere.

You and me maybe so far apart . you used to be the other half of me , you may think now im still crazy over you but actually nope. i've gotten over you like a few months ago ? since boyfriend 1 appears in my life ? Takmu shiok sendiri , seriously . You can act as anybody , but you know what ? i'd always knew the truth . cause god is always against you ! maybe i couldnt delete you from my memory , if you think im no other than a bitch out there like your gina(s) please ! think a thousand time ! - Aku tak macam siak macam kau. ;p

you said this a few days back : i kan macam siak .

Boyfriend 4 : insertnamehere.

You may be in my contact list for quite a long time. But we only chatted once and it sounds like we've knwn each other for long ? and after that our journey goes on quite well . i'd always tell myself not to get my feelings involve with this friendship , but seriously speaking sometimes i sounds stuck in between . Why ? because , there's smth inside you that will start my gugugaga-ism. And i feel comfortable with it . i have nothing to hide away from you . theres smth special about you that i can see. that make my hati terbuka. ;p

Boyfriend 5 : insertnamhere.

Im sumone you can talk rubbish with about all yout girlfriend. but i wander sometimes , have you ever done it once to me like what you did to them . haha.

Boyfriend 6 : insertnamehere.

Youa are the best study partner ever. cause my 5 had been divided into 2. so im stuck in the middle and i dunno who to go with besides you and your partner. cause you both are the nearest. i had fun talking about soccer and shit with you. you make me go so kental ! and so budak kecik .

these are all my kindda favourite guyfriends. some sounded ' boy 'cause they really havent grow up. some presurerize me but some shine me through. thats the story , of them .

i'll stop here.
i malas wanna continue.

now , when im stressed or when im bored ! i love doing this , switching on my mp3 fomr my handphone then take my mic and start my singging . i dont care sedap or tak sedap , lagu yang paling menyakitkan hati is Alya - tak mungkin kerna sayang eh ? until i cry , hmmmmmm.

xoxo

Number 25.

2009-08-02T18:15:00.003+08:00

Last minute plan , JB. ?

Yeah , i did went to Jb. its kindda a last minute plan , my mum told me last night at around 12am ? that we're going to Jb this morning. And they wake me aup from my sleep at 10am. when im still souppose to be in bed for another 2 hours.? in the car abit ribut, thought its just the four of us behind. but we kept teasing each other. our main itention was just to go get those barang dapur ? like the monthly stuffs. Godd thing is , its at malaysia ? cmon just grab anything you like. then all the girls go grab their basic needs. heh. i get some coloured bras ! but i couldnt get the pink and blue one , basically i got no size. too small its a problem , and too big is also double problem ! and i have colourful panty. heh. my blog is private , so i can talk off the limit a bit.

Lunch time , i didnt have nasi patayya , haha thought its my main dish everywhere. i had fish and chips. Singapore fish and chips is way better eh ? seriously. Before i went in to msia , i remembered theres some riot sumwhere , i so kental i was damn scared then my daad say its only at kl some political stuffs. then i was like , omfg ! Moi ?

Its already august ! heh. cepat nye , 20 more days to puasa ? 5 more weeks to N level. Tmrw , its already monday . i dont even feel my weekends. Time flies by just too fast eh ? school is tmrw , so cepat. After school meeting bob , ive been busy so cannot slot anywhow i must squeeze in some people in my schedule careflly. My free time is only monday to wednesday . and my study days is thursday to sunday . but then , this freaky twin of mine is working on my basic study days , so i have to squeeze her on my 3 free days. and therefore i thought i could put bob in my schedule during my free days but then i have to slot in my twin inside. so now , im having lots of clashes ! i dont even have time to go library , and i cant even recall when us the last time i read any of the novels.

Dira called me yesterday , we had a nice time talking nonsense and about dance stuffs. We seriously cant wait , haha . Im waiting for my free time to come so i can start mixing songs again like i mix colour posters ! Woohoo !

This week nonsense ! okay , lets list it all out.

(Monday to Friday got remedial actually but i skipped ! tak sanggup babe.)

Monday : Meeting Bobby.

Tuesday : Study date with ilah , should be DandT folio .
b back before 8:30pm , wanna watch anugerah!

Wednesday: Study with Jo i think , should be DandT folio again.
(ilah and jo tak ngam so cannot go study bertiga must be saperated. ya allah ni budak budak !)

Thursday : Can be a last minute thing with Dee.

Friday : The only free day i can see !

Saturday : Should be studying with nabilah .
At the same time having bbq with my mum and her friends ' celebrating singapore 44th birthday. - boleh cabot tak ? or go late ?

Sunday: Overnight from yesterdays bbq and fishing.

Monday : Public holiday ! either i sit at home or go study.

And depends if i gotta squeeze bob again , i dunno where to squeeze. Pack kan ? and this week things i gotta complete is my humanities ! and sciences ! both combined. saturday then do maths .

Confirm gonna have eyebags ! and im so going sick soon , cause tk cukup tidur. i'll find half an hour to sleep everyday in class. haha. eh i that lemah uh ?

Wish me luck this week , its gonna be a super pack week.
Sorry if anyone ask me out and i trun them down.

Tv thing im gonna watch today is garfield ! at 7:30pm / Tangisan bulan madu at 10pm .
kental kan cerite ? haha.

xoxo

Number what eh ?

2009-07-31T23:16:00.001+08:00

Having flu .
Argh !

I had a study date today with jo. like random kan ? at first went to sengkang poly , go tht that cibai mc. after that spent some time at my favourite spot watch the nature. ;p the sun the sky and just happily smoking my last stick ;( boooohoooooo. Met jo after that at some block , he said he's at block 121 and what the fuck ter pusing pusing aku . he's actually at 121D whears at that place 121 dpd A sampai F ?!Study moments at first kindda bored. i lost my mood , dunno la why. then i also layankan aje whatever he talkin about uh uh uh .Banyak cerite dier , fuh ! and then he kept pestering me to eat longjohn , samapi dier belanje. Prepaid going low , nak harapkan international aje left banyak ! message kitkat lah abey ? siape kitkat eh ? sesiape that call me caramel loh. Hafiz message , why ddint i go for the event at petal , and he thought i at eunos? dah berzaman tk jejak sane. unless i go geylang uh , bazaaar hari raya. (:

B.S : i dont know where he is.We did message after school when i was super busy then when im free he didnt reply me back ? hmmmmm.

Tmrw , i need to attend sumone's wedding. ya allah , punye la malas. i was hoping if dee go if she did then good loh. if not , pleaaaaaase eh , i dont wanna go can ?

xoxo

Number 24.

2009-07-30T22:34:00.002+08:00

Im having the mood.

Okay , i wanna talk about school. just now , on my way tot the toilet i passed nazif and the rest of the guys . and for shure nazif will be like , "Hi you !" i also like " hey !" then sabree was behind with them . (i didnt know that they sama class eh ? ) then he also like " hey shikif !" i did the same thing too . then he tarik my hand from tingkat 3 till tingkat 1 he taknak lepaskan my hand .i thought of going to toilet tingkat 3 abey dier dah tarik ke bawah.

Sab : Lama tak nampak ?
(abey you at boys home how to nampak? )
Kif : Ya loh , abey you inside what ? dah tinggi eh ? dulu you at my shoulder.
Sab : Dah tinggi dah boleh matahyr la ?
Kif : Noooooo. mane boleh ?
Sab: Asal pulak ?
Kif: Abey you kecik.
Sab: Cinta tk kire umur okay ?
Kif: Okay la. sorry la.
Sab: Nak gi mane ?
Kif:Toilet.
Sab: Buat ape gi toilet?
Kif : Kate shikif , anuh rambot la. okay bye !

He touched my butt !when i was walking away from him . then i tell sasha , abey she was like , kekasih lame dah datang kembali mah . no! he's not my kekasih , neevr once. its just that we used to be that close. but we're just friends not having anything.

Then nazif muke hancur. He tengok me semacam .
Ape la korang nie , baru sec three oi .

Wawa and ilah are back together again . Rad and me are quite fine. Sasha and me can go crazy at times , she will keep be annoying herself and call me jambu and i'll call her sasha fierce ! :D Tadi for once oral , we five get together again . But still " melalui pengalaman saya , tiada sesiapa yang harus dipercayai saya lebih rela menyimpan segala resah hati pada diri saya sendiri " that is what i said for oral just now. (melayu , kekok nak mampos. )

Duit atau Cinta?
I pick cinta. My past answers everything.

xoxo

Number 23.

2009-07-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

Helloh Sweets !

N level malay oral exam is today! @ Damai Sec. Anxious excited ! It turned out well , at first kindda scared then after that okay already .

The examiner was like , "awak sungguh ceria sekali eh ? "

Mestilah ceria kan ? abey takkan nak sad sad right ? After oral met sai and acin outside damai . Pey jauh dier lepak . huhu . So yeah , i did. talktalktalk .

After that went home , and guess what ? Mr viknesh go and hilangkan my Medical Cert (MC) yang 7 days nye due to N level exam ? what the fuck right ? then i need to reproduct another MC need to go back to polyclinic. Satu MC pun boleh hilang. Arsehole. Nasib baek la he pay for the thang. ;p I need to go to Tiong Bahru Exam Center for my English oral . which sounds a little better ? cause i kindda tergagap gagap nak berbual tadi during conversation part , cause i would love to blurt out more english words than malay. Harap harap i pass eh ?

Marked my calander with lots of stuffs going on. 5 more weeks to N level ? and im so not prepared ? my TYS pun for my maths havent even started. i really need to start working , i need my maths la. ohno , im so rushing for things out . Tu la dalam class tidur ? abey complain lambat lambat. funny or what uh shikif ?

Stop my membebel , its irritating.

I have lots of things in my mind. though it doesnt really affect me badly but still i need to let it out to somebody. but i dunno who la , nobody could be trusted la to me. why bother share right ? if in the end makan diri sendiri balik . so nevermind its okay ! Better stop thinking , let it rest itself.

Saturday , going study at tempat kelmarin at pasir ris with nabilah . Thats when i could calm myself down. Weekends is always the best ! hehe.

(wait , muhsin called. )
dier ajak aku pergi ceramah ?
i know la i jahat but not ask me out to ceramah is a solution tu bahasekan orang namenye.

I lost my mood la , i cannot happy happy. haiya what a day man ?
I am missing sumone , just guess who loh.- __________.

xoxo

Number 22.

2009-07-28T23:59:00.008+08:00

Listening to more reggae.
hehe .

Start , with school. boring , i only passed one lesson which is dnt . But i didnt study , layan kan dua org steam obat batok . lol . Akim and Acin . Best giler me and acin like so giler , i call him bapak ayam loh. i so bored. then disturb him like crazy . Saifuddin didnt join us , cause know why ? he nak berak ! After that all the malays go smokey smokey at guys toilet. (uhuh la i sumbat with ilah kat cubicle !) the got one student masok berak , kekek siol we kacau . Ni dua ppn kan kalau kene tangkap pun padan muke! then we wanted to skip malay lesson . so we report sick , i was kindda belle. its my second day there. so yeah , kene membebel kejap suruh gi doctor. blah blah blah . At first didnt plan to go home , but ilah dah plan kan suruh this afian ke siape entah fetch us. I was once ilah cousin and for once i got an abang sedare eh ? Menyesal siol , i gotta know this guy . he so pathetic can conclude the type of person i am . baru kenal tk sampai satu jam he critic me already. i so panas inside. long story , nak tanyer sendiri .

Out of boredrm ! i was counting down to call bobby. Cause i promise him i will call him after a few times mengelak . then finally i did , bbl kejap then after that we conclude in meeting each other up cause seriously i got no solution and no arah tujuan . At 12pm i still kat depan sekolah. So we met a few hours later. teman him makan , buy me cigars. i kindda heavy today , dunno why . and im quite ber-appetite today. i had a great 4 hours moments laughing with him and lalala. at pasir ris park , watching the sea.talk talk talk , talk nonsense ! about the past. (flash back !) its the place where i sat with khairul during countdown , when we're drunk ! and i was so thinking aboout halim then. ternigat i was once a makcik baru balik pasar . he sabotage me with some dead fish he kutip from the sea. so bad right ? okay stop stop stop ! no more halim eh please ?

Amirul eh ? whatever , that sick dude.
I had an online date with him and im kindda late.
semalam je kiter okay , we couldnt get along.
ALWAYS !
god knows who actually he is eh ?

xoxo

Number 21.

2009-07-27T22:03:00.003+08:00

Back again at night.
After a nice sleep and dinner.
Im online back , im bored la. Been msging bobby daritadi , till we cannot msg animore then after that we have to meet online. Like now ! and here i am once again , online with him.

Bobby Sour !

xoxo

Number 20.

2009-07-27T15:52:00.001+08:00

having you sometimes is the best gift ever from god.
thanks a whole lot.
i love you so much .
you're that bestfriend i'd always longed for.

xoxo

Number 19.

2009-07-27T15:21:00.003+08:00

shikif tengah main catching dgn bob.
uhuh , betol tak bedek .

'shikif' you big big big monster ! , catch me if you can ! nanny nanny poo pooo ! says:
i lari , you kejar. ?

sawBOBscream says:okayokay
sawBOBscream says:go
sawBOBscream says:hahahaha
sawBOBscream says:ngah kejar la nie
'shikif' : ;p
sawBOBscream says:hehehe
sawBOBscream says:catch you already!
'shikif':i stll running.
'shikif':yes ! i can runn away .
'shikif' :not like you, still kejaring me.
sawBOBscream says:dah dapat eh
sawBOBscream says:hahaha
'shikif' :beluuuuum la.
sawBOBscream says:fikir i gemuk tak boleh lari ke?
sawBOBscream says:hehe
'shikif' :boleeeh boleh lari , but cannot ctch me.
sawBOBscream says:boleh eh
sawBOBscream says:kalau in real life i boleh dapat you cam mane?
'shikif':macam gitu boleh ?
sawBOBscream says:takde.
sawBOBscream says:i nak kene dapat bende

ooooooooooooops ! yang lain semua privated !

begin my day with going to school . and after that miss the bus and after that the lrt. haha. anf finally punctual for 58. giggling upon bobby's msg yesterday. so funny , so cutttttte! geramnyeeee aku .

i was surprised ! to saw mahmood , hakim and sabri back ! yayyyyyyyyyy!.
they're finally back in school.
sabri makin tinggi , mahmood and hakim makin cengkung. and tingggi .
(:

how's school ? boring. and guess what ! im retaking my n level oral on the 13 AUGUST 2000009 ! arsehole ! why 1308 ?! and i was quite all the way with wawa. from mother tongue lesson to reccess to isolation room. kiter nak cabot 3 period english so , kiter yang sakit mengambil kesempatan go report sick . i feel quite a distance with one of my close friend. why cant they both just get along and stop saying that , " she is trying to steal you from me ? " . - dunno la whatever happened happens !

at the isolation room ,

om: you have chinese blood is it ?
shikif : no .
om: is your parents fair ?
shikif : yeah i think.
wawa: her father so fair !

*giggles*
stupid sarcasm !

xoxo

Number 18.

2009-07-26T22:58:00.002+08:00

I wanna type something.
I am fucking hyper.
I am fucking happy.

waitwaitwait , but now i sad already , cause he go offline.
whaaaaaat ?

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
yesterday i was arnd ur hommey.

sawBOBscream says:
tak adil@

sawBOBscream says:
hhehe

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
kate boleh kejar what .

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
;p

sawBOBscream says:
boleh la

sawBOBscream says:
mane nak ajak i turun kan

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
i was studying .and lag pun on saturday ? you kan go jamming.

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
arseholee !

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
anihow only makes me sounds bad. ehh ?

sawBOBscream says:
tak eh

sawBOBscream says:
i dont go jamming eh

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
you never go ?

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
why ?

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
i thought you go , then i sesat around there i didnt call you . i scared you tengah dush dush dush.

sawBOBscream says:
nope.

sawBOBscream says:
dushdushdush pon dengan you jek per?

sawBOBscream says:
haha

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
haha .

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
suke eh dier ?

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
i was at sebelah greenview opp masjid.

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
so jyeah .

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
i sesat when i was as further back , dekat dgn bustop 81 near a bridge.

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
the one after tamp .

sawBOBscream says:
haha

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
what te fuck , i hate that pasir ris side.

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
asl besar sngt.

sawBOBscream says:
jauh ape

sawBOBscream says:
pape call me kay

sawBOBscream says:
i got to go

sawBOBscream says:
byebye

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
;(

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
okay loh.

sawBOBscream says:
sorry

sawBOBscream says:
call tahu

sawBOBscream says:
byebye

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
insyalah\

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
byebye dear.

sawBOBscream says:
call tahu

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
yeeeeeeer.

sawBOBscream says:
syg you

sawBOBscream says:
hehehe

sawBOBscream says:
byebye

'shikif' super happy ! yaaaaaaaay.! says:
syg you tooo! (=

And after that , the whole conversation ends.
waliao ,

thats all , the sweet and de sour moments ends here.

xoxo

Number 17.

2009-07-26T22:54:00.003+08:00

Im super de duper happy .

pada hari yang bahagia ini, bobby hamyam is back. yeeeehe. mentel eh ? (:
he's super cute !
and yayyyyyy ! he's back . weeeheeeee.
1st august 2009 / happy de happy !

xoxo

Number 16.

2009-07-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

Heyheyhey sweets/sour.

Thigns been going on fine lately. After a few weeks of high fever im finally back fine. For now im catching up in my studies , been missing quite a lot huh ? 7 + 3 days MC.

Im super duper happy actually , and i really dont know why. but at the same time , im quite pissed with this arsehole. though he's far apart but still i dont know how we ended up quarelling with each other. he sucks , ade dier buat kelakar tengah gaduh gaduh what the fuck ? he's the one that start it first , since when i change . i did change to the better ! if you cant take up my jokes then dont joke around with me.

School starts tomorrow. And i so not interested in going.

Going study soon , at 430pm ha ? downtown east. omfg. i miss my bobby so much. why his prepaid low? and he haadnt been online at the right specific timing. Bobby , yeah i thought its nothing when your prepaid is low. but i didnt know im mising you much more than you think it is.

ohnoooo , bye sweets/sour.

xoxo

Number 15.

2009-07-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

Tmrw, finally going out of house. To town , gonna get some stuffs for d babi teman nabilah loh. then go national library i guess ? then continue study. Evening ,meet up with Dee and finish up dnt shits with her. im gonna complete my whole dnt journal tmrw. no more delaying.

xoxo

Number 14

2009-07-21T19:04:00.001+08:00

Karma ;

what goes around comes around !

After a week of MC , i get extended three more days.

Im enjoying a lot right here ,

Weekends , BE PREPARED.

xoxo

number 13.

2009-07-18T14:28:00.000+08:00

on a week mc, away!

xoxo

Number 12.

2009-07-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

what can i refer to for N level oral tmrw?
im doing nothing , besides facebook and blogging. ;p

this week objectives ' ; SS mindmap chapter 2,3 and 5.
physics eh , 10 year series.
maths also.

im 8/7 weeks away from all my pathetic N level papers. Im cutting down on my 'main-main' time and my weekends are all meant for study study study. Rad is on my paste already , suddenly from me asking her out for seesha , ended up she bugging me to study with her at airport.heh.

guess what ? my karangan is featured today during ML class. Both my karangan , i did two . one for acin , (yes , i did his homework for him) and its featured during ML class. so did rad's karangan !!

then she was like ,
" this is what happen when you stick too much with the highest karangan girl "

this weekend , from i thought it would be heaven , it'd turned out to be an arsehole weekend doing ss mindmaps at mccafe. -_-'

im having a hard time using this touch screen phone ! yeah , its bloody irritating you. it keeps me from texting people. i can have 500 msgs in my inbox in day and now , i only have like hundred ? what a thing . eh , i wanna change my handphone again ! i want nokia 5800 expressmusic. i wanna sign up for plan uh next month , i dont care already , i want the starhub student plan . got unlimited messages ! ;D the nokia phone before this lasts only for 6 days. and my SEK750i lasts only 4 months. and now , this giler mini iphone till now its only 4 days and i cant stand it , ohh man how can i survive in a few more weeks , days , hours , minutes , seconds more with this phone. how i tukar handphone is like how i tukar baju . haha . thats why halim , likes to scold me for keep changing my handphone.

i need to complete my novel - atas nama cinta. it'd been a week since i last touch a novel . ;p

i miss my hamyam ! dunno where he go, he did texted me. but yeah , then he never reply. i think he's asleep or smth els.

im having fun with life right now , with people like ; rad , dayah , yani , dayah , nab , didah , zuzu , zia ,bobby and last but not least moi . (: (in the list , i prefer to be the last one , know why ? cause the last one always have the least memors but always apears the most in ur mind/heart loh. )

Bobby no. 2 !

xoxo

Number 11.

2009-07-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

Talked ; felt like an dumbass .

Cried , smile , laugh ,

I feel like i'd just touched the moon.

xoxo

Number 10.

2009-07-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

Study date with wahidah , nabilah and zuzu today. we've had a great time with each other.For the first few hours i was busy concentrating with my own work, i just stuck those earpiece inside my ears and layan my own revision thing with myself. And to tell you the truth i wasnt really concentrating cause there's various samurai , those naruto and what not around for this even going on at d marquee' i guess its called " the happy event " so asshole sia , very very very noisey. Mintak kene kick , then i went around after ifinish doing my revision go walk around get some food to eat and then get my lanyard , first time i paisey myself down , i take the thing already then i forgot to bring my wallet down , at cashier already like what the hell ? i should check first loh before i wanna pay , then i goo back to mccafe and get my stuffs and patah balik . overall , we've had nice time together , ater that nabilah had to go . Left the other three of us , then since we've got halau at mccafe then we head to coffee bean at e-hub.there is better , we've gotta sit outside , and enjoy the sensation. i had difficulties nk masukkan lanyard nyer tali to my handphone , what the hell ? very irritating , ended up masuk jugak .

lesson learnt never gave up.

then then then , we continued studying and had srious talk , i had lot of wake up calls uh sersly . i've been very sensitive since yesterday. and i dont know why ,all i wanted to do is just cry ! but i cant , then when i wanted t do so its just not at the right timing. -__-' obek samat and yaya appeared at the wrong timing , but still im surprised. bobby's been jamming all day long and i dont wanna disturb him right now. i guess he'd be tired by now. Have a nice rest huh ?

am i having anny problems right now ? no . am i happy. ? yeah very happy but im not with the one i wanted to be.

can i just get that one person and have a happy life?

xoxo

p.s i wanna upload photos but it just couldnt be uploaded idk why,

Number 9.

2009-07-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

having troubleshooting with blogger to upload images.

and have no time to wait ,

so , uploading soon .

xoxo

Number 8 eh ?

2009-07-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

It'd been an all school mode duuuh. revision revision revision . School's always been great ! im nevr apart with radhiah . haha . she's the best . so funny , she's the only one that can take my clumsy joke , my bello reaction and save me from getting bullied from people ? you know hidayah ? yeah ? when sumone bullies dayah , i feel like punching that person face. and thats whats rad reaction' when sumone bullys me. haha . not really bull lah , like disturb .

Weekends - havign study date with nab , wahidah , zuzu .

im never free during weekends. so , dont bother asking me out.

uploading pictures next.

xoxo

Number 7.

2009-07-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

Helle everyone !
im feeeling letharghic heh/(;

Been busy for exams , im very enthu in taking my n levels so cannot sabar for it to ends and continue the next part of my life.

life's been great !

top up my handphone and kept having giggles infront of my handphone upon bobby's msg. he so funny and so cute. and im having this new phone and sell my old sony eric away , for 30 bucks ? believe or not ? okay fine its quite jahanam but its just four months old asshole at least give me fifty la still got warranty summore. using some nokia hanphone right now , an di so dunt know how to function . i prefer sony ericson totally. and now my mum is offering me another touch screen phone she want the nokia phone and i no need to pay the 50 bucks its FREEEEEEEEEEE. i know my mama angkat will save me from paying that 50 bucks. tsktsktsk .

Wht happen today ?

1pm met nab at pasir ris , walk to interchange. go library change novel . met rad , and then FUAD send us to airport T3. In his proton gen2. Yuppp ,that hot body car . Paisey giler i tell you , i mean fuad c'mon .

Studied at airport , had caramel (; disturbed ilah at counter. After that , obek called ajak go coffee bean. But its damn full , so we ended up in secret recipe. Im an total in an oreo mode. I ate Oreo cheesecake and Oreo milkshake. And the milkshake is heaven !

Back to nab's hse (rad went homey from there.) we take bus to meet dee at e-hub coffee bean with dhabitah and sumbody ? i continued my revision until finish . Then coffee bean closing sooon so we depart ourselfs to mac cause obek samat was with us five he's installing things to dee's friend laptop .

*im such an idiot , kept grinning at every msg i receive frm bby hmym!*
Im overnighting at simei , Reached at 11:20pm.

Muhsin use facebook ? hahahah., gugugagaism comes back when i saw his name " Muhsin b zaidi added you as a friend ! Accepct or Ignore ? "

I deleting friendster , its old school . sersly , zaman biler ehh ?
done !

Yesterday i first time jejak tamp one after study with rad and nab . so kental , me and rad macam orang kaya like that masuk adidas shop all those famous2 shop . go window shopping , so nice you knw ! so gerek , we're like tibe2 giler shopping ! never thought of wanting to go in uh . then got at this shop she went in she holding this everlast pumps then she purposely shoot at my boobie. she giler you know , and she make a fool of myself infornt jo last friday already. some hilarious but embarassing thing . i so paisey , i mean not jo ! and dier pun satu he kpt starring at me sia in class , what wrong did i do to you ? why starring at me ? tgk lah orang lain and why must you witnessed the boobie incident in class. We had fun ah , then i get myself a shirt . at this shop la , rad advised me to get some colours formyself cause im forever black ehh ? so i tried on weird colours like yellow ? tuiquoised and purple ? bringt colours makes it look big huh ? gone to our saperate ways at 8:30pm.

Cant wait for new handphone . Next week im going to get lanyards with nabilah . get new clothes , cause i neednt need to pay that 50 bucks . heh .

Okay babe , im online with bobbbbbbbbbby right now. Laughing at this stupid video so jyeah , Going off for now, anything . Leave me your comment at my taggie !

xoxo

2009-07-05T23:31:00.001+08:00

Then i say blaaaaaaaah blaaaaaaaah blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ,
anw, nabilah huda here :D terror .

Number 6.

2009-06-29T19:37:00.000+08:00

if a guy calls you hot , he's looking at your body. If a guy calls you beautiful , he's looking at ur heart.

Miserable first day of school , was i tortured ? nope. But it feels like the whole bedok north turned to a hospital . Suddenly , when we reached school . Only one gate is open and after then we have to queue till infront of the general office for temperature taking . Reccess is held in class , with food provided. (: No going out of class without class tag . No cabot lesson , for technical lesson teachers have to escort us to our respective classes and when going home , teachers have to escort us to the school gate .

kite dah macam quarantined kat sekola sediri .

Hang out after school at mac with irdayah , liany , radd & pah. I saw sabree ! he went out from boys home for home leave , he's getting taller right now. he'll be getting out of boys home in 2011. haaaaaaa. he was like , " nie shikin kan ? " - no babe , shikif laaa. hang lupe aku ? i rememberes we took picture during musical last year.

Where's the five people ? After one gadoh then another masalah timbul . Srsly , malas nak layan eh . Im srsly not involve . Nak main kasar ape , here it goes la. Me , im doing my job to tahan rad . Let me handle rad . Including myself , i know who im not satisfied with and im the (vocab rad) in this thing , i sacrifice myself to make other people happy and after that , im being stepped ! So now , i told you im no more the old shikif. Jgn tperanjat , Asshole eh ?

saving up money to top up prepaid , by friday i promised you can text me unlimitedly.

Im having a study date with nabxy on saturday , and sunday with dee.

*Legetta Flash* what is the most important thing is the passion !

today seriously , im slacking , i slept in class i was too exhausted. i watch the holiday and confession of a shopaholic yesterday . haaaa . giler , sampai pukul 4 . then 530 i wake up already must sleep early today !

not gonna be active in blogging , blog when im free jyeah ?

xoxo