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I'd always say that love sucks big time.
Cause love always hurts.
And i'd never thought of falling in love once again.
After two years of cure-ing my heart.
Finally i found my dear darling.

Life has a always been great with him by my side!
I'll love him today , i'll love him tomorrow and i'll love him forever i guess?

Lets keep my past behind , and let this new one begin.
I hope it'll have a better ending than before.

All i could say is , i lost you once and i cant bear to loose you again ! ;D


Wawa texted me this morning !
i am so happy to the max.

Today i didnt meet nab due to some of her reasons. -.- And , i actually met ashraf in return. Yes i miss him ! , padahal only one day we didnt meet. Which is yesterday? So at first , off we head to pasir ris park . We sat my usual place with either wawa , rad , or ilah. But most of it is wawa ! I almost cried there , but bear bear was there to cheer me up. After then we bus-ed to sengkang! we planed to lepak at pur usual place , but its taken by some nyonya. We ended up at sculpture park then. And kindda lots of hilarious incident happened.

Shikif : b, you got blackheeds?
Ashraf: Ape tu b?
Shikif : Dier from whiteheed to blackheeds to pimple.
Ashraf : Eh?
Shikif : I anuh kan eh?
Ashraf : Sakit tak?
Shikif : Tak la, tapi kalau i mesti mata i berairnye.
Ashraf : Anuhkan ! ;D

The rest is private and confidential , its just between us. We met at 5pm till 1130pm. And guess what ? After i board 86 , we both receive the same message from each other. ' i miss you '

To hell , what people wanna say, Ashraf gemuk ke , ape ke tu ke nie ke. Know what i still love him. <3

Labels: Ashraf.

Am i blessed with luck today?
Rad says im a no luck person. -.-

Today, my whole family went to bedok. The kids is placed at nenek hse. And my parents ,  to weddings and the hospital ! Biler la aku nak khawin eh? And of cause i went out to meet my members , and this time its no wawa , its rad. I bought bubble tea for shure ! Honeydew Snowblend! Hang out at petal garden tempat lame , its gettting more boring. The skaters are still there , with the street soccers player. Matrapes/Minahs seated at pondok. I was once in their position./3 years. ;D Nothing much besides them. Almost everyone dah masuk , or some just get busy with their own things.

 Sabri , Mahmood , Hakim , Wawa And Sya is already in.
Rad on the way to go.
Labvee and khalis is busy with NS. (some of the guys should be doing th same thing also. )

Im now left with just limited people , like sasha , hakiem , acin , ashraf ;D and my cousins. Its okay! i guess im the last one to know that acin and dayya broke up alread. like yessssss ah ! i hate dayya du-uh. And acin said smth to me yesterday , and im serik enough with his perangai i guess he tengah steam obat batok or smthng. Finally he agreed to it , DAYYA IS A BIATCH. Yayyyy! selame nie aku tengok kau susah payah nak jage hati dier , jadi babu dier. And now finally you realise things , i dont wanna say those things straight foward , cause i knw you will realise it by yourself. 

By random , ajaq text me today . Ask me if i wanna buy ciggs or not. Yess shikif tengah kering and cannot buy anymore singapore. Dah terlalu pohkyeee. And i told him ah mate, then he was like indon pun nak mate? SO he said he pay half for me la. Cause i always give him rokok, singapore summore. Tak mengungkit , but like imran ajmain says , yang selalu memberi ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima !

Halimhalimhalim! - haha. sasha told me smthng just now. It make my day! (= i didnt save his number , du-uh. i wouldnt want to ,  but i always remember it by heart. i even still memorize his ic number la eh? And she said i filled up most of his inbox. Hakiem als ! but , nevermind ! i was having the *uh-huh feeling* lol. Though the feelings like faded away already -.-

AshrafAshrafAshraf! - i dont know what to say, im happier with him .

Labels: Ashraf.

One Month/contacting with ashraf .
i lost the battle , i thought ashraf will get lost before one month.
i hate having bets with ilah. -.-

Oh hello ! im still here , termasuk this week dah dua minggu menganggur tanpa kerje. Kerje gue melepak , meghabiskan duit , dan membuang masa. Im always at tampines. And after yesterday when ilah said im growing fattttttter i got so annoyed with it. It kept hunting me day and night. And so today i went to gym with rad , i did the usual things and additional weights to have telur. -.- which i dont need any? im carrying two big telur already? We spent our time there and after then we lepak-ed around anchorvale. :D

Tomorrow, going bedok ! yessssssssssssss ah ! and im gonna lepak with rad again, and meet my baby tua ! I am so sick right now man. And im having tummy pain, should be beacause of the panngkeng machine at gym just now. Okay byebye!

Btw, I MISS NABILAH HUDA AND AMALINA !
<3

I met ashraf one whole day, i mean just form arnd 4pm til night. Before he went to work, we just alack around sengkang. For once , i buy cigratte tak lepas. I think because he dressed up to ' matrape ' .hehehehe. So i took the LRT from compassvale to rumbia(peh, pathetic one stop?) to buy cigarettes , then lepas tu patah balik compassvale. Dah macam budak giler , but the rumbia aunty dah season ! she knows what cigrattes i want. The deal is , if shikif lepas shikif sekotak ashraf sekotak. Stupid deal right ?

I hate nasi ayam ! it makes me eat non-stop. I forgot about my diet thingy. But i eat nasi ayam ,never eat the ayam , i eat it with udang? lol. That makes me sound like an idiot ? And i had , one big choclate bar yesterday all by myself. I cried,

Wawa dah masuk , she's with sya inside.
-.-

Rad , on the way , waiting for court letter.
Baru turun HQ last week.

Nad , busy for o levels.
Will be meeting her after he o's.

Ilah , busy with work.
She's not a good friend afterall so i dont bother much about her.

Halim ,
Been receiving good morning messages from him lately.
:DDDD

Ashraf,
Always been there by my side.

Taufiq,
under probation.

And now , please i need a job. Not F&B it sucks a whole lot. I tried compasspoint , mostly no vacancy. For giordano i have to go for interview at payar lebar, but still i have no ezlink. Tmrw , i going job hunting with faiz, souppose to be at plaza singapura bt as i say , no ezlink so will be going amk hub. Just one bus 86 , depan rumah. Kan sempurna sikit ? Just keep trying , keep trying.

;D

Labels: Be wise at making decision, Nigga love.

Labels: Ashraf., Be wise at making decision, Nigga love.

I dont know what to blog about !

Since just now i've  been surveying what phone is best to be our couple phone.We've been having a hard time deciding which phone is best for us. Kate nak LG ! then now , he melarat ke nokia pulak , if nokia i got one in mind already !Nokia  E71 ! hehehehehe. Kurang ajar or what ? Shikif uhhhhhhh.

I want LG cookie ! i've been wanting it since acin use it , seriously. hehehe. nasib baik dah tak sekolah lagi , if not i'll be killed by irdayah. Anyway so what man ? Who cares ? lagipun dier setakat nak sakitkan hati acin what ? She's not really into acin , she just wants those guys around her.Cause she thinks she really looks good with all of them. But actually , Nope !

Siti Aisyahhh ! i always thought her name is Nur aisyah abu bakar.
Paisey ahh. ;D

Okay, besok kerje ! At 4pm.
Takmu sabo aku eh , tolong la.

Ashraf.

Alright , its gonna be random for now. Im gonna talk about the tittle above. I dont know where to start haha , but yeah he's so cute ! Okay for now , let me start from how did we both gotta know each other from the start. Here i go !

Primary Five.
First , we are from the same primary school! , Telok Kurau Primary School. And after that i dont know how we both get along , but we first started to menggatal after the primary five camp ( after i broke up with tajul isfahan. )  Our relationship , kirekan low profile la , only close people knows about it . Until , one day , his bestfriend  , ashshafiq came and ask me to be his girlfriend ! And this ashshafiq doesnt know that im with ashraf. So i told ashraf , to let me go with ashshafiq " i pergi kat ashshafiq kejap ajer nanti i pergi kat you balik okay? " Then he say "okay."Kate cinta monyet ! Cute kan ?

After that , during my primary school i have two other friends. Kirekan we three are always together , Shikif , rasyidah and liyana . Ashraf , ashshafiq and nasrul are so called are among the hot hot boys are at that point of time. Liyana dgn shah matahir , Shikif dgn ashshafiq , and so dengan pathetic nye we both make rasyidah go with ashraf. Why ashraf? cause nampak sangat syidah tak akan kene dgn nasrul thats why its ashraf. And after that i dont know how , ashraf and rasyidah became together.

Lepas tu ! Our cerita cinta kan is not low profile anymore ah especially me and ashshafiq , seriously ramai orang tahu , sampai ade orang yang dengki dengki semua , and yes these three fella' hidayah sanip , suzy and herdawati. Dah la ni tiga ekor same class dgn tu tiga jantan ! the girls are so called the clever ones , we are two class ahead from them. hehehehehehe , intelligent sangat. And then , ade orang sabotage kiter , go and tell these cikgu kepo inside our school ; Cikgu siti . Tu tiga betina la tu , so yang kene is shikif and ashshafiq and rasyidah and ashraf.(Cikgu siti suruh kiter break off.)  Ashraf happy nak mampos , idk why mati2 taknak patch dgn rasyidah but ashshafiq and me are still together. But me and ashshafiq didnt llast for long ah , suddenly we broke off. (i ask for it.) All these while when even ashraf and me are together with syidah and ashshafiq , me and ashraf still bermesra kat telephone everyday ah. Without syidah and ashshafiq knowing. Then im so called close with syidah though she kept telling me that she still love ashraf i still like "oh okay" and didnt bother about it ah. Until one day , ashraf tell ashiq about all the things that we both done together. And then ashiq tell syidah , and so the seret is , "ashraf stead dgn syidah setakat nak shikif balik ashraf tak pernah suke syidah." jengjengjeng! then syidah mengamuk with me ah. But i dont care , i have all the guys around me , setakat satu puki je taknak kawan dgn aku , so what bebeh ? And after then ,im not part of them anymore ah.

Primary six.
I was transfered to a better class , thank god im far away from syidah and liyana. Syidah stills tergila-gila kan ashraf . Then we gado gado gado , syidah call me prostitude sia. Dier kate , kerje aku asyik nak menyundal je dengan jantan. After i got out from that group i joined the clever people group ah , kan dah tukar class. But though these people are clever , seriously their perangai suck nak mampos. That time ahh kirekan , those nuraini and all. i only like afiqah and radhiah. And primary six also i start mingling around with ilah .

Im still in contact with ashraf la for these two years until i end my primary school PSLE posting day. .
I love him but i dont wanna be with him i scared we lost each other as boyf/girlf.

The freaking thing was ,
Syidah , Shikif , and Liyana - Bedok north sec. 
Nasrul , Ashraf - Bedok town sec.
Ashshafiq - Pin yi sec.

Me and ashraf wanna get to the same school , but tak dapat. Syidah wants to be in the same school as ashraf pun tak dapat. Syidah doesnt wanna be in the same school as shikif but at the same time she got liyana. Syidah then burukkan my namer to her class , cakap i stole his exboyfriend from her la and "shikif kalau single semua orang tolong ah jaga matahyr korang. "

Will history repeat itself  like me and halim ?
What if he change after ITE ?

You can say whatever you like and what not , i dont think i'll accepct anybody until that person wait for me for another two years. Seriously , i just dont want history to repeat itself. My main point is , love hurts man ! if you arent willing to get hurt then better keep away from falling in love. Its nice when its still fresh but once you get sick and tired of it , you'll just find any reason to break it up . Your partner then, will be the victim of love. And i was once a victim , the pain is still here in my heart. i'll never forget that pain . The pain that change my whole entire life right now.

Until , im confident enough with myself. Until im prepared to get hurt , until i cure my broken heart. Then i'll replace it with sumone new and i hope , nothing bad will happen again .

After three years , i stil love my Abd Halim Bin Abu Bakar.
Like got nobody else , i also dont know why am i still going for such a jerk like him.

Bebeh , i dreamt  about halim. <3
Why now eh he come again?

Actually i dont wanna blog , but after i read sasha's blog about the 50 cents incident i feel like blogging straight away ! Oh okay! btw , i gotta job ! at T3, i got a position at cafe BARISTA ! (mccafe!) i was interviewed by suzy , and she's so so kerek. And ilah accompany me all day long , till wawa came. Cause she bingit, and so i love orang yang bingit bingit ! cause i love listening to stories. At least i  can keep some little things not like feena ! i hate her , i dont know how am i gonna live working with her , tak terfikir pulak feena nanti kerje dgn aku.

And now , im at wawa's  hse. lepaking , Nie la orang kene probation . Waiting for zee to come , cause we wanna go buy rokok. I wanna watch syurga cinta ! but that dvd ilah pinjam. like what the fish ? my mama at johor , everyweek she will go one. haiya ! Naddydy at home i guess , just now when i wanna go out i ask her to sleep on my bed , cause she sleep terkangkang at living room.

Im gonna return the ljs uniform when my i feel like my muke is tebal enuf to give back , tanpa segan silu .
Im gonna start work soon , this saturday ! From 4pm to 8pm. This is call a proper and organised company , OJT is souppose to be just 4hours of training. And not on the first day , you give me the counter position without even guiding me ?   and after that put me to work from 3pm - 11pm when actually i know nothing.And i dont get money from the 3pm-11pm work on that day. Seriously , its just a charity work for long john silvers'

 I hope things isnt gonna be cocked up at T3 later on , as i can see ilah is really having a hard time working there because of some pecahkan secret and what not. And so yeah , i dont know and i dont care. I dont even wanna get involve , and i know me and feena isnt gonna work that well . My main point of being there is just to work and earned some money. Seriously , if only being a prostitude = kerje yang halal. Dengan rela hati , aku reala jadi prostitude doks. hmmmmm. Kerje sorang. ;D

Download more reggae songs !
Aku kan hantu reggae tsktsktsk.

Long john silver's sucks a whole lot. serosly , neer work at any lonh john silver outlet . it is so pathetic , kerje dah rabak giler abey gaji kecik ? -.- i think im gonna get fuced by the manager  , she caled me just now and i ddt bother to answer. she said , are you still interested in working ? if not at least hve some courtesy to ive me a call. And so , guees what i replied? i just say , oh , im sorr but i really really really a no interested to work with you people.

My semangat of going to school hilang semerta , i slept at 4am and after that my alarm clock doesnt work. ;D bukan doesnt work ah but orang dier yang tak bangun. Even ashraf slept late and can wake himself up to wake me up. lol. And so i woke up at 130pm.

As i didnt go to schoo today i thought of cancelling my meeting with ashraf . Cause i so called injured my leg gara gara kerje and then ya lah i thought of just buat bodohing with the thing .  And then  , tibe tibe my kaki , DAH BAIK , after kene pijak. And so i meet him. In the middle of the thing, halim message ! what the fluck ? then in my heart , all i could say is just "Why now?" And our mood just got off like that , and i shed a single drop of tear on my way home.

instead of getting a caramel for myself , i ended up eating one pickle-less cheese burger !
<3

Tomorrow , i have an interview at Changi airport terminal three ! As a beanie ! (Mccafe la sayang oi.) Ilah says i'll get that post 90% confirmed. So yeah , i hope i'll get it. So every single day i can make my own caramel and drink it for freeeeeeee !

Prepaid , low giler right now.
grrrrrrr.

LJS Sucks.
I went once and im not going agian.
;D

xoxo Tomorrow , design and technology theory paper.
wish me luck.
;D

Labels: Design and technology, Last paper, N level .

Jobhunting part1.

Seriously this was random , it was unplanned and then i just signed up for fun ah. i do it alone and then they give me a form and ask me to come back the next day, so i did . and they say came at 3. when i reached already she say come at 4. like what the fluck . And withing 12 mins the next thig i know is , im employed !

Jobhunting part2.
Wawa and Zie.

We had one of our misssion done. We went job hunting at Tamp one and i got quite a lot of application signed. At this accesories shop , and this japan shop also i applied to be part of their crew, blah blah blah. Quite a lot ah. And after then we went to bedok to lepak , and we forgot that wawa ade probation until 7pm. like what the fluck , zie ask me to follow them go bedok by the time dah pukul berape right ? i tried reaching for ashraf but he tido mati. hehehehehe. So we both then lepak with wawa depan rumah dier. Aku ketawe kan budak 667 yang dieorng lpak depan rumah akmal maser dier probation in th end aku yang jadi mangsa nye sekarang. -_-'

As usual , with zee we gossip a lot .
I dont want wawa to masuk, pls pray hard for her.

Facebook Madness.
;D

Rasyidah Osman: no waaaaay ! me or you making babies for him ? LOL !
Shikif Sinclair: YOU ! why me? NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Acap Astro: damn!
Shikif Sinclair: hahaha. Ashraf ! who is making babies for you ?
Rasyidah Osman: hahaha , obviously you laa dey ! tnyer dier buat aper .
Acap Astro: damn it!
Shikif Sinclair: hahahhahaha. dier nak cume malu jer nak cakap. -_- ''
Acap Astro: tkmu merepek lah b
Shikif Sinclair: You marah i ? -__-'
Acap Astro: mesti ar !
Shikif Sinclair: Sorry bbby . ;D pleeassssssssssssseee?

Seriously , my main point was to get them both together again. i mean i knew rasyidah wants ashraf since they broke up. and ashraf had been the one that saperates us both from being together again. he's the cause of the distant , cause rasyidah found out the truth that he stead with her just to get me back. And do no since im the one that get in contact with ashraf back , then i wanna make them both be together again. But after much  things that happen between me and ashraf , im afraid that what i hope for at first isnt going to happen. Because i love him  much enough. Me and ashraf had things going on first before rasyidah. And thats why , we kept saying , " we lost each other once , and we dont wanna loose each other again, "


Saifuddin Zimbabsueh seee i told you! your's bigger! degil kan?! haaha
Shikif Sinclair Pantat you la ! hahahaha. ;DDDD
Saifuddin Zimbabsueh betool! tak cayer nie. haha
Shikif Sinclair diaaaam ah! test nie tak betol la. ader rosak sikit.
Saifuddin Zimbabsueh hahahaha. tak cayer sudah. taknak cakap pape. haha
Siti Noor Sahilah hahahaa .
Shikif Sinclair HAHAHAHAHAHA ! pathetic nyer korang !
Saifuddin Zimbabsueh well i am. hahahaha
Taufik Bin Bahar saya stuju bob..high five (borat style)
Shikif Sinclair oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. serious ah korang. what the fluck ? ;[

*giggling*
Hehehehehehe.

Labels: facebook madness

Short post. [;

Hakim sapau text me yesterday.
luckily i was already back at home , if not i'll be shouting alone inside the bus.

Maths paper was horrible.

I went for job applying thing yesterday.
and today im going for the interview at 3pm.

Job hunting part two today ,
with wawa and zie. i dont wanna kerje jauh jauh at bugis , i want the one depan my house !

Today is the 9.10.2009 .
* 8 more days to shikif- halim official 4 years*

Yesterday , 8/10/2009
Rad , masuk prison .
But shes already out.

Sinclair's <3

I screwed up my maths paper like what the fuck ? i didnt have time to finish it . -_-' whats done is done ! i cant change the whole thing again . screw me ! , stop dreaming of being an architecture yaw !

Days with ashraf sinclair had been going fine !

I lepaked with rad just now. Ilah sucks eh ? Okay and guess what ? this friend of mine broke her babytooth at the age of sixteen at one pondok while lepaking infront of her fraking friend that couldnt stand the sight of blood ! what the fuck ? i was freaking geli and i almost vomited. i have my history with blood.

I feel like sharing my experience for my maths paper today! haha. i was freaking nervour i tell you and im so tired. i didnt study yesterday night and all i had was last minute revison this morning. seriously , i was really masai in school . hair is always the problem and i wore the wrong uniform it was so big and i feel so naked today. Then before i had my paper. I'd been going in and out of the toilet pee-ing. seriously , this is like the most worst experience of all. History paper was yesterday and i was also behaving the same way like this. grrrrrrrrrrr. and my maths tutor was sitting infront of me , ariffin . so he was like , relax shikif relax its just a paper ? why you so patah semangat before even you touch the paper? i cant stop talking ! you know how bising i was? seriously. like what the shit man me ?

and today im overnighting dee hse to get prepared for my maths paper two in two days time. Radd's court in two days time too. wawa and rad is having high hopes in masuking and they are gonna meet sya inside and its left me alone. with my freaking irritating super annoying friend. oh-mi-god. i cant resist her. and they both are being irritating by kept mentioning me about the thing again and again. pls get me out of that school asap !

oh well i am ? in just two days time! thurday maths paper two and monday is my dnt paper ! yaaaaay ! after that i'll take a break and start looking for a job ! srsly , i need the money bebeh. ;D

No more studying at rivervale plaza , no more iskandar. last saturday was a torture i was studying alone without wawa and the iskandar suddenly appear. I cant control my laughter till i have to act talking on the phone while actually i was talking to no one ? i was laughing my arse out. thanks too wawa for torning with her boyfriend and left me alone. -_-'

Everyone is going to their own way and i can seriously see that.

I didnt know sasha misses me much enough. and she stills think about me ? haha. i read your blog you kental ! so we get connected through FB and our blog. im gonna get her nike slipper as soon as i got the money.  [:

Labels: Screwme

♥Norashikif Aznan. Sixteen/twenty-two.oh-nine.one-nine-nine-three.
ITE Tampines/Space Design[Architecture]

♥Blissfully Attached to Muhammad Ashraf.

You can give without loving, but you can never love without giving

A/Yan. A/Lina.

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