I dont pick ashraf not because , i dont love him.

 I do ! and thats why its a better not decision , are you kidding me ? why would i wanna break a friendship throguh a relationship? When i was stil with halim , i stills blog about him evry year when his birthday comes .I stil write about ashraf in my diary , and when i get too restless , i'll flip over my diary and start reading the pages about him. Even though , i dont knw where he is.

And now, from the first day we got to contact each other back , we do click with each other still. Even though i dont really know him that much yet ,and so does he , we still try to click and understand each other better.

I didnt tell anybody that im in contact with him , its just that im always creless enough in holding on to my things til people will shurely find out about it. Tough they say that he's fat , and more not t be mentioned. [sensitive issues.] im stil like oh okay, nevermind he's cute.

the beginings of me and him now is just the same as me and halim dulu . where everybody doesnt like halim cause he's fugly. [ much worst than an ugly man. ;p] And so , if its gonna happen between me and ashraf or smthng , i hope its not gonna be like my story with halim. ;] And for shure, its not gonna be now.

Why i pick halim?
Cause im holding on to a promise to him for another two years, selagi tu two years tak sampai selagi tu aku tak puas hati. I dont think i even love him anymore rgiht now, [finally,after three years ;D]